part 15

The next five days passed by really slowly. I tried to get over Josh but I just couldn't and he didn't help at all; he kept calling and texting me. It was getting harder and harder for me to not see him.

On Wednesday my phone rang with a local area number: *256****5 but it wasn't a number I knew and I'm sure it wasn't a 1-800 call.

"Aloo?" I answered, wondering who it is.

"Hallah Talah, shloonich?" A manly voice replied, "Ana 7asan."

Ah, Hassan Al-*****! He's one of the few other Kuwaitis studying in San Mateo College. I hang out with him at uni and let me tell you, he's a sight for sore eyes; especially sore eyes that hasn't seen 5aleeji guys in so long. I used to have a mini-crush on him (and Josh) when we first started college but he's just a friend and we never exchanged numbers or met outside of class but he's calling me for some reason.

"Oh, hii... ana zaina il 7amdilla, shloonik inta? 5ala9t il public speaking speech?"

"Hehe" He chuckled, oh man his laugh is killer, "ee.... actually, I called 3ashan widee akalmich ib shay... are u free right now?"

"Ee... 3an shino?"

"agoolich laman achoofich."

"um.... okay... il7een baroo7 Safeway bashterii cham shay."

"perfect, achoofich minak ba3ad 10 minutes."

"ok, cu." I replied and ended the conversation.

Hmm... Let me get dressed.


I put on my jean shorts, tank top, flip flops, my sunglasses, got my bag and keys and off I went.


My phone rang again, "Josh" appeared on the screen with a picture of him putting his tongue out.

Okay, I can't take this anymore! I clicked answer.

"Talah, phew! Finally! Talah please please can we talk." It was so good to hear his voice again, I really miss him.

"Hey Josh."

I think I heard him sigh on the other side.

"Talah, how r u?"

"I'm good." I tried to talk as little as possible because it's very possible that I might break down at any second and I don't need that right now.

"Talah, can we talk?"

I inhaled, exhaled, and counted to ten.

"Yes."

"When?"

"Today? But I'm on my way to meet Hasan at Safeway right now."

"Hasan? Oh okay... how about you come over for lunch?"

"Okay, sure."

"Yeah?" He's so cute.

"Sounds good, see you then."

"Bye Talah."

I miss him, I miss his breath next to my face, I miss the way he looks at me, I miss our talks, I miss our hangouts, I miss the way he used to hold my hand, I just miss him.



I arrived at Safeway right on time and saw that Hasan was there already but he was waiting at Tasty Treats, a delicious icecream place.

He smiled and waved which made me smile back, I guess I still have a TINY crush on him.

The lady greeted me as I came in, she knows me min kithir ma I eat there.

"How are you Talah? How's school? You come for ice-cream?" MaiLee the Korean lady asked me. She's so sweet! She always talks to me whenever I come in here for icecream and sometimes she'd give me free ice-cream.

"Hey MaiLee, how are you? Yeah, sure why not... I'm actually meeting up with my friend..." I pointed at Hassan who's now standing next to me, "he's actually from Kuwait too."

"Ahhh, I see." She winked and gave me a knowing look which made me laugh, "he goodlooking!"
She whispered to me but ofcourse he heard.

I looked at him and he ran his hand through his hair and lowered his face but was smiling.. you know what I mean? The thing that guys do... Ugh, that drives me crazy! Its so sexy.

I blushed and laughed, "MaiLee you're so naughty! Hehe, 7asan ma3alaik minha."

"Laish? galat shay '3ala6?" He challenged me.

"Hehehehehehe!"

"La2 3ad Talooh, matifa8na chithii!" He started tickling me.

"HAYY! bassss.... tadrii inee a'3ar!"

There was some serious flirting going on, it got my mind off of Josh for a few minutes... It actually felt really good.

"Hehe, yallah i5thay icecreamich 3ashan I have something to ask you."

"Okay."

I took my ice cream and was about it to pay when he made me go sit down and paid for me instead. I thanked him and sat down on of the tables.

"Okay." He said as he pulled in his chair, "I'm going to just ask," he exhaled, "are u still with Josh?"

Woah, that was unexpected, I was completely speechless. That came out of nowhere, we never talked about Josh.

"Talah, please jawbay."

"Um, madri...I think so."

"So you're broken up?"

"Errm... Yes."

"Do you still like him?"

"Ee."

"Okay, 7a9alt jawabi... ma kint abee agool shay gabil bas now that you're single bas kint bagoolich inee I'm interested in you."

Wow.

"Oo ba36eech wagtich bas I want to ask you if you want to go out. You don't have to answer now, I'll be waiting... i5thii ra7tich." He put his hand on my hand, "Talah, please fakree fee..." He said and got up.

"Okay." I replied.

"I'll be seeing you." He smiled his sexy smile, "Talah."

90210 teacher ;) the one that Matt looks like

I got a picture of him and a video... but to really know what I mean that the 90210 teacher is hot, you have to watch 90210... i couldn't find really good clips but here's one.... he appears at 3:10



and here's a picture:



and btw sorry for the confusion..when I said I'm typing a new post, I did a new post for Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? not Love Drops.... Love Drops's new post is coming.. SOON ;) hehe

Thoughts & Questions

Okay awalan, i'm back on track! wallah sorry 3an il updates bas i had my exams.. but i'm ALL DONE now :D ... oo my internet wasn't working for the past TWO DAYS!! bas its working now :D thank God I had my blackberry....;) hehe .... i'm working on a new part right now..

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'3air hatha...for the past two days I've been walking up way too early.... madrii laish... lazim itchoofoon shakli ams... kint 6al3a starbucks bilail oo i was going to fall asleep on my friends...i was so sleepy.... fa laman radait il bait i went straight to sleep...


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Bas tara il7een il jaw 7ada 7iloooo for swimming..... 7ada yabeela chalet! ma ri7t :( bas I did tan and swim ib my cousin's swimming pool :D .... My face and body are now brownish-pink....

Any one else out there tanning?

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Random question: How old do you think I am? And what do you think I look like?

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I was watching a TV show... you know catching up with mosalsalat oo chithii now that I'm free? .... ee? oo the song "time after time" was on one of them.... oo it fit soooo perfectly... oo 9ar feenii sha5barii!!!

So I downloaded and am now playing it over and over again.

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Speaking of music....

Does anyone know the old Right Round song?
I, for one, don't like the new one.


I LOVE the old one... the new one is a pervy remake...


Awal ma 6ila3 il flo-rida one... i was like "oh!!! hatha remix?" oo people looked at me like hathee shfeeha?

oo i'm singing the lyrics to the old one: "you spin me right round, baby, right round, like a record baby, right round round!"

oo 6ila3 ina the lyrics are completely wrong....

i was so confused ina shisalfa?! im SURE those are the lyrics.... three weeks later or so, I figured out that flo rida made a new song.

heheh.... '3abiya wella shino?


anyways here's the video




which one do you like more??

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oo min the important dates in KUWAIT'S HISTORY from 2009 was the day COLDSTONE opened in Avenues...

I bet you ANYTHING that no one was more sad than I was that it was going to open...

and that no one was as excited as I was once I accepted the fact that it was opening!

Laman fatchoo I was shocked that they didn't have one of the KEY ingredients in any order: COOKIE DOUGH!

I was about to strangle the worker, miskeen...

My eyes opened wide and I asked him: "NO COOKIE DOUGH?!?!!"

He laughed and said that they still didn't import it and that the next time I'll be there, there will be cookie dough. I didn't want to push it and say that the next time would be tomorrow so I just shut up and ordered the icecream with brownie....




but....

dum dum da daaaaa
*scary music ;p *


I went the next day AND . . .


THERE WAS COOKIE DOUGH... hallelujah!!



But I'm in big trouble because I had coldstone seven times the week it opened.... I went daily to Avenues for the week and would walk from one side of Avenues to the other to get my coldstone after a movie or before shopping.

Yum.

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inshallah the new part will be ready by today... :)

I'm heading out now...

Thanks for reading :)

Comment people, please :)

Comments make me smile.... they make me want to WRITE! ;p

See you, love you all....

--Hi, My Name Is...

part 14-b

"Matt? 90210 hottie-look-a-like, Matt?" I stared at her.

Her eyes were down but she brought them up to look at me. She was really ashamed, "Please don't judge!" She pleaded.

"No, I won't, I won't.. but how, why, when?!"

"Okay...we started seeing each other before uni.. I didn't even know he was going to be a professor at our college.... but we dated, had our fun, you know?"

"Yeah." I nodded-- Bas akeed ya3ni 'had our fun' sha'3la '3air ib amreeca 3an il kuwait.

"Well, when I found out that he's a professor and he found out that I'm a student in his class, we broke it off... that would be really unprofessional, you know? And although he is young, he's mature and very responsible... so we called it off but I still have feelings for him... like strong feelings... this only happened two times before and when I got these feelings, I fell in love with those two guys.... so I guess this is leading to love... But anyways... where'd I leave off?.... ah yeah, we broke it off but I still really liked him... but we just became friends after that.. like I'd joke with him in class and stuff but its harmless..."

"Oh, I'm sorry... it must be hard."

"It is... and I just can't be his friend any longer.. so I made the move, the party was the first time since we broke up that we actually got together...."

"Got together?"

"Made out... danced... you know..."

"Ahaa okay I see" I winked, "What about Jared?"

"Me and Jared weren't dating for more than four months... I just knew him that amount of time... but when Matt and I broke up.. I thought maybe Jared and I would have a connection and we weren't doing anything that isn't allowed... he's my age and a student and everything.... but I'm not happy with him..... the happiest I've been is with Matt"

"Yeah.... hmm.... does Jared know that?"

"I told him tonight... no details, just that we were better as friends and I guess the feelings were mutual."

"Hehe, that's good."

She laughed, "Yeah...."

"So this is so highschool, but how'd you rate Matt's kisses out of ten?" I asked which got another laugh from her.

"Talah, trust me, it's 11.5 out of 10..."

"Wow, that good, huh?"

"Yup! What about Josh? I never got the pleasure of kissing him?"

Now it was my turn to laugh, "hehehehe, well me neither."

Her eyes became huge, "Don't tell me you've never kissed???"

"No I did just not Josh.."

her expression went back to normal... hahah;p ...."Why not?"

"wait first lemme explain Kuwait's society to you for a bit."

Fahamtha shloon ihnii 3aib il dating oo chithii.... oo like some ppl date secretly oo the part about religion oooo blah blah blah....

"I still don't get it but about the religion I get that... and it's good to pull away now then go in deep."

"Yeah, that's what my friend back home, Haya said....Hehe, I know you don't... you just have to be like there or a Kuwaiti to get it.... but in a way i think you got the concept.... hey, what time is it?"

"Shoot, 6 am..."

"Hahah, we've been talking for three hours..."

"Your explanation itself needed almost an hour!"

I stuck my tongue out, "Thank God, we don't have uni today."

Important Message

Inspirational Song
Seriously, read the lyrics, it's really impressive and so true and tragic...
Amazing song, even though it isn't a new one, this is real music, Love it... thought I should share it:

Hands Held High by Linkin Park

"Turn my mike up louder I got to say something
Light weights step to the side when we come in

Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running

Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping

Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and

Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping

Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for

Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for

Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor

Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank

These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the cheque
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect

For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"

[Chorus:]
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen

World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions

Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep

Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away

It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes

My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show

My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine

On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die

Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?" "

part 14a

I felt someone playing with my hair. What's going on? Where am I?



Oh.


Right.




Last night came rushing back and remembered everything that happened.

Ouch, my head is starting to hurt.

I realized I'm on Chloe's bed, sleeping on half of it and she was playing with my hair.

"What time is it?" I asked her.

"It's 3AM."

"Oh, did I wake you up?"

"No, I just came in 15 minutes ago. What's wrong? Josh left a long time ago and he looked heart broken, he wouldn't even talk to me! What's going on? Did you get into a fight?"

Heart broken? :(

"Not really, we actually broke up."

She stopped playing with my hair.

"It's a long story, not really long but it's really complicated... I can't go over it right now."

"Okay, I understand. Are you tired?"

"Mmm.... but keep talking please, I want to hear about your boyfriend. He seems so incredible."

"Yeah, he is... but I don't know about him..."

"What'd you mean?"

She grew silent.

"Chloe, what'd you mean?"

"Please don't judge me, you know me, you know I'm not a bad person and I never mean to hurt anyone."

"Ofcourse!"

"I'm just going to say it and get it over with: I'm kind of with another guy?"

"What? Who? I've been with you since we started uni--- " I paused, All the events clicked together, from the first time we entered his room and up until the party... "Oh." the teasing wasn't just teasing, she was actually flirting... "Matt? 90210 hottie-look-a-like, our English proffesser, Matt?"

part 13-b

I guess it's time to face reality... I turned to face him. 

I guess my expression revealed that there's something wrong since he grabbed my hand and walked to the nearest exist as I followed him. 

We went out to the garden and he held my hands tightly in his, I can feel his grip on them.

"What's going on?" He asked. 

I stayed quiet and moved my eyes away, I'm too weak jidama... I just can't...

"Talah," He tilted my face towards his, "what's wrong?"

I looked into his confused eyes, "I'm sorry." That's all I could get out. I was about to leave but he tightened his grip on my hands.

"Talah, what's wrong?" He asked again. 

"Josh," Just saying his name really hurts... I'm really into him, "Josh...." I said again as I felt my heart break into pieces and felt myself getting weaker and weaker, "we can't do this any longer." I replied without looking into his eyes. 

"Talah-"

"-Josh, please, don't make it harder than it is." I was so close to breaking down, "I've got to go, see you."

His hands weren't gripping as tightly as before and so I was able to get out,  I left him alone and headed back to the party. 

Everyone was dancing and having a good time, I just couldn't face it right now. I went to Chloe's room, closed the door, and released all the tears until I fell asleep. 

part 13

btw for those of you who haven't read it, part 12 was posted before this... thank you for reading, love you...
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Hi, My Name Is....
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"Umm... Hi Matt." I greeted him, confused.

I heard Chloe's footsteps behind me, "Matttt, hey...." She sounded real happy to see him but when she saw my expression it became a bit awkward, "Um... well don't you both stand there, come on in Matt"

"Okay, thanks... neat house."

"Hehe, that's the best you can do?! Aren't you an english professor?" She teased and i think i calmed down a bit.

I mean this is Matt, Matt who we joke around in college with, Matt who is a bit older than us.... he can party with us, can't he? I mean this is what he's here for right?

"Chloe, come with me for a sec, I want to show you something in the kitchen... I wanted to ask you about." I nudged her arm.

"Yeah sure, be right back Matt."

"Sure thing." He replied.

I pulled her to the kitchen and closed the door, "What is this Chloe? What's he doing here?" I tried to keep my voice low.

"I figured he should hang with us." She replied innocently.

"But isn't it weird, I mean he's fun and we'd joke around with him in uni/college but party with us?!"

"Yeah, he is kinda like a friend, isn't he?"

"He never hangs with us!"

She avoided eye contact, "Um... yeah, it's okay Talah, calm down... he's chill, he's a friend of ours."

"okay, if you say so."

She smiled, "I do."

"This won't affect how we're treated at uni/college?"

"Nope, trust me."

"Okay, you ready to have fun?"

"Yup, are you Talah?"

"DEFINITELY!"

We went back to the living room and I felt so much calmer knowing that she had invited him to actually hang with us... he's really good-looking too so that doesn't hurt... haha ignore that thought.

The bell rang again and a bunch of our friends entered. The living room started getting a little crowded so we put on the music and started dancing again.

The bell kept ringing and people kept coming in until one time I opened the door and I saw this guy standing there.... fitting Chloe's description of her boyfriend PERFECTLY! He also had flowers in his hand.

This MUST be him.

"Hey, are you Jared?"

"Yeah, hey, what's up? Is Chloe around?"

"Yeah she's in here, come on in, I'm Talah."

"You're Talah! I see. Chloe told me so much about you.... how are you?"

"I'm good, it's great to finally meet you, come on let me lead you to Chloe." I pointed behind me where the music's coming from.

We got to the living room where everyone was dancing and we saw Chloe and Matt dancing together, wow Matt's a good dancer.

I waved to Chloe to come over.

She put an arm on Matt to stop him and brought him over with her towards us.

"AHHHH!!!!" I heard her scream over the music when she saw Jared, she ran towards him and started kissing him. Aw, they looked so cute together.

Matt was left behind them looking at them but there was something wrong, he had an expression on him that I hadn't seen before.

Hmmm... what could it be?

I didn't think of it much further since I myself felt strong arms wrap around my waist. A smile automatically appeared on my face, Josh.

Wait, no, Talah.... itthakiray, lazim u break up with him!!!

I quickly removed that smile.

part 12

*buzz* *buzz* *buzz*

Ugh, what time is it?!

I looked at the clock 4:30AM. WTH? Who calls at 4:30AM?

I clicked answer, "Taloooooooooooooooh!" Haya's voice boomed in my ear.

"Hayoo, chub." I replied, grumpily.

"Shda3wa chithii nasya 3ani? Ma kalamtich 7ag TWO weeks!"

"Mmm"

"Nayma?"

"7ilfay?"

"Laish, haw, sa3a cham 3indikum?"

"Hayoo arba3 oo nu9 il 9ub7...Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh."

"Shinoooo?"

"Zain chithii? I'm awake now."

"Sorry...."

"Digeega." I reached for the milk I keep next to my bed and drank a bit, mmmmm, delicious! "Okay, 9ij 9ij I'm awake now."

"Mu5ich gam yishti'3il?"

"Waiiiiit for iiiiit...." 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, ...." YUP, il7een.... HIIII HAYOOOOO!!!!!" I screamed into the phone.

"Ahhhh, Talooooh's back!"

"Haya, I miss you wallah!!! Oo t3arfeen shkithir i missed speaking in arabic!?!? Ihni englazii 24/7!"

"Hahahah! Yal 9aida!"

"Hayooo min 9ijeee... aalllaaah i7sas 7iloo ini atkalam 3arabi."

"Ee, ya7mara, law itkalmeenii akthar, tigdireen itmarsain reya'6at il 7achi bil lu'3a il 3arabiya akthar."

"Heheheh, tadreen you can call too!"

"I DID!"

"Oh yeah you did, ams." Sikat.

"Shfeech?"

"Hayooo, ithakaraiin Josh ilee gitlich 3ana?"

"Eee.... "

"Umm... il7een ohwa boyfriendy.."

"Yummm... ya7a'6ich...inzain shilmoshkila? laish sakta?"

"Lazim I break up ma3a."

"Haw laish? Cham youm 9ayerla your boyfriend 3ashan you do?"

"Ams wadanii 3ala "date" oo gilna ina i7na boyfriend oo girlfriend.... oo hayooo iyanin!!! yihabil! bitmooteen 3alai.... ahbal! oo yishawig! oo rayal bas nafs il wagt yahil."

"Inzaiiin..... 3ayal laish you breakup?!"

"3ashan, awalan, mo kuwaiti.... ok hatha yamshi... bas thaniyan moo MUSLIM! ya3ni shbasawii.... oo wain ahli yir'6oon inee atzawaja?"

"Laish itfakreen 3an il zawaj?! taw il nas.... bas istansay ma3a."

"Witha I fall in love with him?"

"Mmm.... a7isich you already are."

"Mmm.."

"Talooh, aww... bas mo nafs a5ir thalath marat..."

"Hayaaa! a5ir mara, i really really liked ahmed..... ziad oo abdullah ilee kanaw bas chithii...."

"Okay okay fine."

"Haya tara '3air hatha.... kan biboosnii 3ogob il date.... bas wa5art."

"Min 9ijich? laish?"

"Madri..."

"Hmm.... madrii shagool... bas tara itha you're falling for him... madrii 9a3ba ina idisheen bil relationship akthar."

"ee 3ashan chithi i want to breakup."

"Hmm.. wallah madri."

"Next topic... INTAY shlooonich? ish9ayer ma3ach?"

"Okay, hehe.... Taltoola ma ra7 it9adgeen!"

"Shino? Shinoooo?"

"Bayeeeee 3indich!"

WHAT?! I couldn't believe it.

"MITA?!!?!!"

"NEXT WEEK!"

"9IJ, 7ILFAY!!!!!!!"

"WALLAH!!!"

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I screamed... I was really awake by then.

"Hehehhee, 7adaaaa!" sima3tha mishta6a all over on the other side of the world.

We discussed for a while shino lazim ityeeb oo kilshay oo solafna 7ag sa3tain ba3dain la7a'6t inee lazim anam bas 7asait ib ra7aa ib galbi. Waiiiiiii ma agdar an6ir 3ashan achoofha!


Nimt wil ibtisama shaga wayhii, Hayoooo bityeeeee! Bitmoot 3ala Josh ooo CHLOE!!!

Ooh! Ilyoum bagooluhum... ako il 7afla il laila ib bait Chloe.... akalemha ba3dain

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Itjahazt 7ag il 7afla oo kil shay 7adi mistansa... I'm gunna meet Chloe's bf today!

My phone rang, "CHLOE"

"Heyy, where are you now?"

"I'm two minutes away."

"Yay!"

"We're going to start partying right?!"

"Definitely! Before the guys get here."

"I can't wait to meet your boyfriend."

"Huh, oh yeah, sure. I've got to go, see you soon."

"I'm coming in right now, bye." I replied as I shut the phone.

I went inside the house and greeted Chloe we sat down and converesed for a while. We talked about our date and everything bas ma giltlaha what I told Hayoo, akeed ya3ni ma ra7 tifham.

We just wanted to get loose after so we got up, turned off the lights, and started dancing.

Ooof it feels sooo good to release everything, we shaked our asses off and went crazy. After an hour, we calmed down and got some cold drinks and fixed our hair and makeup.

The bell rang oo fita7na il bab oo I got SHOCKED..... OUR PROFFESSER.... at Chloe's house, for the party!

part 11

Talah

Uh-oh, I looked around.... what am I supposed to do?

I took a step back and left some space between us. This is feeling really weird and awkward. He looked at me confused. I have to admit, he looked adorable like that, like a little kid not knowing what to do.

"Umm..." Ma 3araft shagool oo ohwa ma 3araf shloon yirid 3alai.

I had to say something! This is so awkward.

"Ummm... I'm not ready." I whispered, feeling tiny.

"Oh."

"But come in." He looked as if he was thinking about leaving, "please?" I pleaded and placed a hand on his arm. 

He eyed my hand on his arm. He seemed down. Oh my God, what did I do? This was a perfect date, why'd I have to ruin it?

"Are you okay with this?" I asked as we walked inside. Kint 9ij 5aifa.... ya3ni ihnii all of them kiss...bas madri, I'm just not ready. 

"Yeah, I am." He suddenly changed, seeming like his old happy self. But I can see it in his eyes, he was still confused. "Come on, loser." He told me and pulled me close to him.... mmm, this feels good.

We spent the rest of the night just talking and hanging out. The awkwardness was mostly gone but there was still a bit of it hanging in the air. 

Josh

This is so frustrating! I'm getting a headache because of how much I'm thinking about it. 

I just left Talah's house and it was a refreshing first date, it was a lot of of fun, and Talah, Talah is great, she's funny, sexy as hell, and a great listener..... what more can I get? 

I thought we were getting along great, I felt a spark between us. And we're what? In Uni/College... what's up with the "I'm not ready to kiss" thing?!

Sure, I shrugged it off and we had fun after it but what the hell?

I don't want to be a jerk, I'm not a jerk. And if it were any other guy, I'm absolutely sure they'd just shrug HER off but-- but, I shrugged the issue off... why's that?

Why?!

Jesus! I'm falling in love with her.

I am.

If I wasn't I couldn't have been okay with what happened, but I was.

Talah

He hates me. I'm sure he's going to break up with me. Akeed Talah! Ya3ni ish3abalich, you can take him home to all of your friends and family? 3ablich ra'6yeen 3ala il wa'63? You've put that issue aside for a while now. It's time to deal with it!

No way will my parents approve. Hell, my cousins and closest friends wouldn't. I mean, sure, a fling but nothing serious!

Josh

I don't care about the physical stuff and this is without me knowing her for that long. 

That's it, I'm going to put effort into this relationship.

Shoot, I'm falling for her, HARD.

Talah

Shoot, I've got to break up with him.