Part 16b

Its short but its a continuation of part 16a... expect another post today or tomorrow ;***

SO sorry about the typo.... it's Talah not Chloe, haha ;) ;* .... my internet didn't work so i couldn't fix... fixing it now ;*

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At first he wouldn’t respond. I ran my hands through his hair, kissed him harder and then he started kissing me back. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer.

I thought of Chloe at that moment and her kisses with Matt… she said he’s 11.5 out of 10…. I’m pretty sure this kiss would score a 12.5.

Josh left one hand on my waist while his other hand came up to my hair where he pulled my head closer. I felt his lips smile against mine.

I can’t help but to smile too.

Our lips parted since we needed to breath but his face stayed really close to mine, “What was that Talah?” He whispered in his sexy voice.

That snapped me back to reality, to why I kissed him in the first place.

I looked into those beautiful eyes, “That was curiosity; your curiosity” I paused, “and mine.”

“Mmm..” He said as he pressed his lips against me again

, this time he was kissing me, this time, softer.

“Why do I have a feeling you’re kissing me when you’re trying to say something else. Is this goodbye?” He asked when we paused.

I looked back into his eyes, exhaled, and said as a tear fell from my eye, “Yes Josh, this is goodbye.”

He ran his finger across my cheekbone then removed the tear. He came in one last time for a long and sad kiss.

The tears were rushing out of my eyes by then as we kissed for that last time, "I'm sorry Josh." I whispered into his ear as we hugged.

"I love you, Talah." He replied.

"We're still going to be friends aren't we?"

He laughed, "Definitely, idiot!"

"But I'll still have feelings for you."

"I know, and I'll still love you." He replied as he wiped tears away from my face.

"Okay, I've got to go now."

"Okay, I'll see you around, Talah." He replied as he smiled but the sadness showed in his eyes.

"I'll see you around, Josh... Goodbye." I said when I reached the door.

I heard him say "Bye" as I closed the door behind me.

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Photos, this time from http://ilovewildfox.blogspot.com/

Funny Moment

Hey everyone, sorry I'm not posting these past few days have been crazy, always on the go.

I actually was home early yesterday but it was such a long day that I crashed at 10 something despite it being summer holiday.

Anyways, just wanted to tell u something funny that happened today.

Lemme give you a bit of background first. I'm having this party thing with my friends and family soon and so I went to get a cake with my dad-btw I got this really cute cake... it's SO funny, but that's not the point oo if I say what it looks like 7ada bikoon fa'6ee7a so anyways- I sent an invite via mobile to one of my friends that I haven't msged in a long time.

While we were choosing the cake and everything my phone rings oo 666***** appears... I'm thinking, huh, I don't know who this person is... So I answer and it turns out to be a guy and I'm like, "Mino?"

"He's like intay mino?"

Oo u know ilee I'm thinking wai3, kilish mo wagtik, bugg off... so I replied, "ra8am '3ala6" oo 9akatai 3ala wayha...


Anyways after that I get a msg in arabic and was about to delete it thinking its a stupid da3aya or something but then I pay attention to the number and it's that guy's number...

oo the msg says: asif wi9ali resala min hal ra8am 3ala 5a6i il thanee... oo then his name

I automatically delete it (by mistake) since I normally delete msgs after reading them.

Bas ba3dain istaw3abt that I think I sent him an invite to a party with my FAMILY and FRIENDS and it had the 3inwan and everything we were going to do. LOOL!!

I don't have the msg any longer and silly me, I forgot the name... ugh!! I'm an idiot to have deleted it....

I'm really curious as to who it is!


I told my friend this story oo istaw3abt ina ashwa this guy seemed to be mu7taram since he left his name there too... So I think he knows it's a mistake, phewww.


But at the same time 7asa he's going to drive by that night and see what's going on... that would be funny.

This all happened like 20 minutes ago or so.

But the funny part about all of this is that everytime I see a young guy after that msg, (I've become so paranoid) I think: IT'S HIM.

LOL


Btw, I promise, there will be a post, SOON. ;** love you all
hope u laugh at my expense ;*
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Part 16a

Sorry everyone hehe, I fell asleep on the table yesterday here was my note: Okay, I'm back.... listening to Mason Musso's (from Metro Station) song, You're From Above as I type part 16...
Check it out:

and I just got back from a party... thought I should continue it and post it... enjoy ;**
love you all ;**
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As soon as I reached his house I noticed that he was waiting on the chairs outside for me. He got up quickly to greet me but he didn't get the chance to come to me since I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder.

"I miss you." I whispered into his chest.

He hesitated at first but then I felt his arms wrap around me.

"Come inside, let's eat lunch."

We sat at the table and ate quietly. He kept looking at me and I kept looking at him, it felt so awkward.

"What's this all about Talah? You break up with me because I tried to kiss you and now you miss me?"

"What?" I stared at him gape faced.

"You're sending so many mixed signals and it's really unfair because I really like you!"

"I'm sorry." I replied, "It's just complicated."

"Well, then, uncomplicate it!" I could see the vains pop out and his muscles appear in his arms as he clenched his fists, "Do you know how frustrating this is for me?!"

"I--I Jo--sh" I stammered, "Oo--kay... I'm going to uncomplicate the whole thing...." I looked at his beautiful blue eyes that were now filled with confusion, "1) you are not a Kuwaiti ... and 2) you are not a muslim"

I could see that he grasped the concept as his eyes softened and he unclenched his fists, "Oh... Talah, it isn't a big deal."

"No, Josh, it is... in Kuwait it is! There isn't a future to this relationship!"

"How can u say that?!" He replied angrily.

"Josh, trust me, I really want to be with you... but there's no hope... I can let go the fact that you aren't Kuwaiti but I can't let go of the fact that you aren't a muslim." I tried to say it calmly but my voice was shivering, "So it's better to get out now then go deep."

"Is that why u met with Hassan?!"

That came out of nowhere, "Wait, are jealous?!"

We were both standing up right now, furious and fumed.

He came closer, "I'm jealous as hell, talah!!!!"

I looked at him, speechless, "Why?"

"WHY?! WHY TALAH?! ARE U SERIOUS?! Talah I'm falling for you... I try to kiss you and u seemed to want it to until u backed up and I let that slide... I didn't need that kiss... It was enough JUST BEING WITH YOU... I WAS SATISFIED... But then you break up with me!!! You break up with me.... and a week later you go out with HASSAN?! I'm JEALOUS TALAH, I'M JEALOUS!!"

I stayed silent. This is the first time I see him this mad and his face so red, he was always calmed down and laid back... he looked incredibly sexy like this.

I took a tiny step forward... and another one... and another one....

He was so furious that he didn't notice until I reached him.

"Josh?" I asked, looking up at him.

"Yes?" He replied angrily.

"I'm sorry." I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and crept closer to his face.

He looked confused as hell... my lips were next to his lips and then I moved them to his cheek.

"I'm sorry Josh... I really want to be with you... but I can't" I whispered into his ear.

I was sad yet scared at the same time because of how tense he was, I can feel it... I think he can hurt me if he wanted to, although he never would.

I moved my lips back in front of his and went even closer and brushed my lips against his.

This seemed to calm him down a bit.

I did it again, but this time I kissed him.

part 15b

I was frozen in my seat after he left and my eyes wouldn't move from where I last saw him; I stopped eating my icecream since I lost my appetite.

"Talah, you not want icecream?" MaiLee asked me, noticing that I wasn't eating. I snapped out of my zone.

"Um, yeah.. I think I'll just take it to go." I gave her a weak smile.

"Okay, Sure sure." She gave a bag and cover for it, "See you."

"Bye bye, see you soon."

As I left, I noticed that I forgot to go to Safeway. I got a trolley and walked inside just wondering what the hell I'm going to do.

I didn't pay attention to what I was getting or the choices I had of those things... the only choices that ran in my head were: Josh or get together with Hassan.

Hassan came from a respectable high-class family, one my family would definitly approve of.

But Josh, Josh, I think I'm in love with Josh. It may be too early for love but I'm definitly on the way.

Ugh.

I left the trolley in Safeway and went to my car. Focus on the road Talah. So I did and it was able to take my thoughts off guys.

I got home at about 12 and decided to go straight to Josh... I Miss him so freaking much.

So I checked myself in the mirror, I looked okay but I didn't bother to change... I wanted to get there ASAP.

So I got back in my car, sent Josh a msg that I'm on my way and off I went.

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sorry that its so short.. i put it as the continuation of 15 so its just the end of 15 and intro of 16.... i'm leaving the house now, going out with my friends. ;) as soon as I get back I'll start part 16 ;) ;)

love you all,

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