Love Drops: June 2009

Friday, June 26, 2009

R.I.P Micheal Jackson

Allah yir7ima. :'(

I can't wrap my mind around it that he's gone. I wasn't like a fan fan as I am with singers and bands but he is amazing.

I mean seriously, he's been singing since was like what, 6?!

And Thriller? Billie Jean? Will You Be There, beautiful song from Free Willy? Moonwalk? Beat It? HIS DANCING?

Need I say more?

I don't care what people think;

He was amazing;

He was wonderful;

He was spectacular;

He was just down-right phenomenal.

Moment of silence for MJ; rest in peace.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Part 17

Three days later:

I'm headed to the airport to pick up Hayoo right now... her airplane arrives at 3 and it's 3:10 right now. I'm soo incredibly late.

I concentrated my thoughts on something other than my lateness and again, as always, Josh occuppied my mind. I realized that, what, I've only known Josh for about a month?! I felt as though we've been together FOREVER.

He really became one of my closest friends in a reallly short amount of time. Is that dangerous?

Bas we weren't only friends, we were-and still are- in love. People don't find this kind of connection anywhere!

I parked my car... it was 3:20 now..... thank God my phone didn't ring... I guess Hayoo still isn't done with her bags and stuff. To get into Cali, you have to take a picture, do a finger print and go through scanning your bags again and that takes a while.

Anyways, I know she'll love Josh!

Mooo im9adga inhya yaya!! And today is THE perfect day since Alex is having a get together and everyone's coming (Chloe, Josh, Eric, Nick, Alexa, Laila, Hannah, Alex, oo Jana) oo lots of other people.

I got inside and thankfully, she was nowhere insight. I fixed my hair and tugged on my top while waiting for her.

Five minutes later I saw her familiar figure walking out. She had braided her hair, had her sunglasses ready in her hand, wore a white tanktop oo a pink cardigan on top, jean shorts, and fliflops. She's so ready for California! I thought to myself as I called her.

"TALAHHHH!" She came to me running and hugged me so hard. I didn't realize how much I missed her until that moment! I hugged her back and her smell enveloped me completely. She had on her Vera Wang Princess perfume... she never leaves anywhere without it... oo kil mara ashima athakirha.

"Hehe, 7ilfay?"

"Wallah.... ashwa inee yait!" She winked, "oo tarah 7adii mistansa 3ala il laila! abee achoof kilman!"

"Hehhe ee!!! kilman yisa2l 3anich..... widhum yichooofoonich!!!"

Oo we talked all the way home... suwalifna ana oo Hayoo... Waii I miss her!

I got home knowing that Chloe will be there, she said she wanted to meet her and couldn't wait. So we got home and I opened the door and called her name but I didn't hear her so I just thought she wasn't there.

We took Haya's bags to her room and went to the kitchen to drink water when we heard moaning sounds.

Uh oh. I thought, I giggle was about to erupt from me. Chloeee! I thought to myself shaking my head.

"Talah?" Haya asked looking at me curiously. 7igartha oo da5alt il 9alah, "Chloe." 5azatha. Wa5irat 3an Matt ishway oo radat 3alai ya3ni innocent, "Heyy Talah, did ur friend arrive?"
Oo Matt blushed, nazal rasa oo waved to me, "Hi-ya."

Oo I can't help but to laugh! I caught them multiple times making out. And every time, Matt gets completely embarrassed, I guess he's still not okay with the fact he's dating one of his students and embarrassed that he can't control himself-atleast that's what Chloe says.

But I don't mind, I actually think they look so cute together. So i nudged Matt and told him and Chloe, "You guys, I'd like you to meet Haya."

Matt mad eeda, "Hey Haya, nice to meet you."

"You too Matt," Radat 3alai while eyeing him appreciativly. A smile crept on my face, I knew what she was thinking, "I've heard so much about you."

Matt glanced at me, "Good I hope?"

"Yes, 90210 hottie look a like" Haya replied which made us all smile.

"Are you the famous Chloe?!" She asked Chloe.

"YOU must be the famous Haya!" Chloe was already standing up, "and we've heard so much about you." She hugged Haya.

"Vice versa. And you can get back to making out, you guys look cute together!" Haya galatluhum oo ihya mistansa while I blushed.

"I love you already!" Chloe replied as she sat in Matt's lap and gave him a kiss before returning to us, "What are you girlies wearing tonight?"

"Going to choose now." I replied.

"I hear both Josh and Hassan are going tonight." Chloe hinted and I glared at her, "dress up wisely." She winked and they all laughed.

"Thank you for having fun with my drama filled love life." I commented sarcastically.

"ALL of you are paying, you're all going to help me dress for tonight, including you Matt, we need a guy's a opinion."

"Fine with me." Haya and Chloe said in unison.

Matt looked helpless from once face to another, "there's no chance in hell I can run away?"

"Trust me, you'll have three girls chasing you, you won't be able to outrun us."

He sighed and dragged himself of the chair, "Okay."

We spent the day fooling around, joking, Chloe and Matt making out constantly and flirting, until we got the perfect outfits for me, Chloe, and Haya.

We were all ready to go to the party so we headed out. I drove with Haya next to me while Chloe and Matt sat in the back and were having a makeout-fest.

We got to Alex's house and piled out of the car.

"Little Talah, what up what up?!" He greeted me like always.

I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a big bear hug, "I've missed you little Alex! And I

want you meet Haya."

"Aw man, I've missed you too. Haya, so nice meeting you! Tiny, tiny Haya." He commented which made me laugh. (She's so petite, soooo thin and so short.)

Haya laughed it off and went with Chloe since she was tugging her in to meet everyone.

I stayed at the door with Alex, wanting to catch up.

His eyes were glittering, "You didn't tell me, what did you think about the date?! Man, Josh and

I worked so hard on it."

Ooh right, I forgot, he was helping Josh with my date.

"Alex!!! You were!! Helping him! OMG it was the BEST DATE EVER!! So cuute since the beggining I loveeeed it!!! It was perfect!!!!"

He smiled a huge smile showing he was proud of their accomplishment.

"Where's Josh? I haven't seen him since then."

"Wait, he didn't tell you?"

"Tell me what?"

"We broke up." I replied silently.

His expression changed from a smirk to shocked, shocked.

He was about to say something when Josh's car came up from behind me. He parked his car and went into the house acknowledging us with a nod.

Alex was speechless.

I shrugged, "long story."

"Who broke up with who?"

"I broke up with him, but I really don't want to." I replied guitily.

"Why then?"

Alex had this air around him, he was an amazing person, I felt as though I could tell him anything. I trust him so much.

I sighed, "it's hard, it's just, like, in general, religion differences. It's a big issue."

I think he understood; I heard his parents got divorced over issues like religion and race.. He nodded and said, "I'll talk to him."

He gave me a hug, kissed my hair and in we went.

Haya was already introduced and was hanging out with Jana and Jake and Eric. I'm pretty sure Jana and Jake were hitting it off and Haya was eyeing Eric and vice-versa.

Music suddenly filled the room and everyone started to dance. I joined in and we boogyed all night long.

Josh was there but he wasn't dancing. I saw him laughing and touching and flirting with 3 different girls, it sung, but what can I do? I have to get over him.

Suddenly I feel these arms around me, definitely man arms, they belong to Hassan.

I turned around and he danced with me. We danced together for a while, just laughing, having our fun.

I felt someone staring at me the whole time, I turned to the source to find out Josh's eyes luring on us while he was kissing a girl.

I felt a burn rush through my body, I was jealous as hell.

But I concentrated all my thoughts on dancing with Hassan, that's all I could do.

But everytime I turned and saw Josh, he was taking another swig, another alcoholic drink, and flirting and dancing way too innapproipratly with other girls.

I never saw him drink before.

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the long awaited part 17

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I'm Back

Oh man, shoot me, shoot me now readers.

I never forgot you guys, I swear, I think of you daily!

My internet didn't work for FIVE days; I swear I was going to kill myself! Thank God I had my blackberry!

Other than that, I traveled! :D I'm in Las Vegas right now; woohoo!

And I'm working on the post since I finally have internet + time!

Other than that, I posted two normal posts... trust me, read them! ;) lots of advice for all of you. :)

Love you all so much ;**

You see how much happier I am? (You'll understand when you read Ls of the World ;) )

Hi, My Name Is...

My Mission!

People! People! People!

I was on a MISSION. I mission to get taller.

That was actually my phrase I'd use when telling people: "insert name, I'M ON A MISSION, insert name, TO GET TALLER!!!"

My trainer said that girls have until the age 22 or something to keep getting taller.

So since I LOVE drinking milk by itself. *side note: I can't believe people don't like drinking milk! It shocks me! HOW can u not drink cold milk by itself?* Oh well... Anyways, since I loooove drinking milk as it is by itself, I decided I would drink it more times in a day since my trainer answered my question of how much I can drink milk by saying as long as it's FAT FREE, as much as I want.

PERFECT!!!! I never realized that I can intake something I love as much as I want. For more than a month I upped my fat free milk intake with 5 or more filled glasses per day... mmm.. yummy!

And guess what?!

Today morning when I woke up, prayed, brushed my teeth and came to the living room where my family was, and my older sister was standing next to me.

First of all, she's older than me. Second of all, we're the same height exactly but she may have been taller by an inch or less.

But today she was like: "Mama! Hi, My Name Is... 6alat! A6wal minee!" Whaaat? I thought. So we stood next to each other, and guess what? It's TRUE!!!! woohooooo, in your face, everyone who doubted me when I told them about my mission!

Anyways, I'll update you guys on if it's true and any improvements. ;)

BTW, I'm 18. ;)

Drink up, girls! (And guys, if there are any reading this. ;p)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

The Ls of the World

Okay okay, so this post was going to be filled with hate and hurt and pain because that was the way I felt after I saw a person who I thought was my best friend driving a car with lots of other girls and she didn't even tell me she was driving or to ride or anything today.

It as a SLAP to the face.

BUT,

I talked to a loyal friend and she gave me great advice that was all true....let's call her, L. And now this post is all about love and respect.

Now, I want to dedicate this post to all people out there who are like her.... those who are THERE for you, those who care.

This person, L, although we aren't as close as we used to be, she's ALWAYS there for me no matter what.

I asked her what to do when a person treats you like trash when to you she's your best friend. Do you guys have that type of best friend?

Anyways, she was like she would talk to them and I said that she wasn't the kind to talk. She asked if it was M (That girl who I thought was my best friend;p) and so I said yes. I tell you, I'd trust L with my life!

She told me the truth to my face, that M was moving away and that it was a slap to the face and that I should wake up to the reality.

She was absolutely right!

BTW, she wasn't telling me this in a mean way, she was telling me this in the right way (Plus this is just the overall general thing); and it's not like she's talking about something she doesn't know, the three of us, L, M, and I were close in the past for a while but we aren't as close but we you know how it is, we all go to the same school and she knows me so freaking well I don't know how she does. I've been through so much with her (good & bad & hard times).

Anyways, I always thought I was this happy, positive, optimistic person. But she made me realize I wasn't... I wasn't happy in a while. I was being treated like sh--.

It wasn't always like this, I'm pretty sure there was a time about four years ago when things were really good, where we actually cared about each other.

But not anymore. And L made me realize that. I cried so much today.

She woke me up to reality. The reality being that this is the end of a lie I let myself live with for a while now.

And I realized I really wasn't happy or positive, if I were, I would've concentrated on the good things in life.

And at that moment, I got an epiphany.

I have so many good people in my life that do care about me. I should stop concentrating on people who have been close to me for a long time and put them as a priority when to them I'm only a choice. I did have other people who I can tell actually cared about me.

I feel refreshed, and happy at this moment moment, after talking to her. I am ready for a new beginning.

And I am ready to be genuinely happy again.

This post goes out to all the people like L.

I love her so freaking much and look up to her and respect, you have no idea how much.

You have no idea what emotions and feelings and realizations went through me today. This is just a general idea.

I just wanted to tell you all this quote I love and how to true it is:

"Don't make someone your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing."

Amen to that! ;)

I feel thankful I built a strong bond with other people because I did make M my everything for a while, I let her in so much, she was like family to me and my family.

This post goes to L, and all the amazing and wonderful people like her who are honest, strong, caring, openhearted friends that just keep u on track.

This post is for her, she's just truly amazing, and I want the world to know her.

A note for you readers: be happy; focus on the good parts of life, SERIOUSLY; DON'T make anyone your priority when ur just an option; and don't make a person your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Honesty

Honestly, I didn't get a chance AT ALL to finish the new part before I post...

I've been super busy these days and this is actually the first time since the last post I get a few breathing minutes to sit on the computer so I can tell you guys, it's still not ready....

MAYBE tomorrow..

XOXOX...

Sorry times infinity.

love you all,

Hi, My Name Is...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Teaser for the next part :P

I know inee 7adee ma9a5tha o lazim I finish the next part, but trust me, it's going to be good. :)

Action, action, and more action.

Just a teaser for what's happening next.

1) Haya's in town!
2) Party at Alex's house (guy from swimming pool get-together) "little Talah"
3) Hmm... who is going to be at that party? Talah, Josh, and Hasan in one room? Chloe & Matt? What goes on?

You'll find out.... SOON. ;)

love you all,
Hi, My Name Is...

Btw, the Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? Finale is up... read & comment (A) hehe. :D

I HEART YOU ALL ;**

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Part 16b

Its short but its a continuation of part 16a... expect another post today or tomorrow ;***

SO sorry about the typo.... it's Talah not Chloe, haha ;) ;* .... my internet didn't work so i couldn't fix... fixing it now ;*

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At first he wouldn’t respond. I ran my hands through his hair, kissed him harder and then he started kissing me back. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer.

I thought of Chloe at that moment and her kisses with Matt… she said he’s 11.5 out of 10…. I’m pretty sure this kiss would score a 12.5.

Josh left one hand on my waist while his other hand came up to my hair where he pulled my head closer. I felt his lips smile against mine.

I can’t help but to smile too.

Our lips parted since we needed to breath but his face stayed really close to mine, “What was that Talah?” He whispered in his sexy voice.

That snapped me back to reality, to why I kissed him in the first place.

I looked into those beautiful eyes, “That was curiosity; your curiosity” I paused, “and mine.”

“Mmm..” He said as he pressed his lips against me again

, this time he was kissing me, this time, softer.

“Why do I have a feeling you’re kissing me when you’re trying to say something else. Is this goodbye?” He asked when we paused.

I looked back into his eyes, exhaled, and said as a tear fell from my eye, “Yes Josh, this is goodbye.”

He ran his finger across my cheekbone then removed the tear. He came in one last time for a long and sad kiss.

The tears were rushing out of my eyes by then as we kissed for that last time, "I'm sorry Josh." I whispered into his ear as we hugged.

"I love you, Talah." He replied.

"We're still going to be friends aren't we?"

He laughed, "Definitely, idiot!"

"But I'll still have feelings for you."

"I know, and I'll still love you." He replied as he wiped tears away from my face.

"Okay, I've got to go now."

"Okay, I'll see you around, Talah." He replied as he smiled but the sadness showed in his eyes.

"I'll see you around, Josh... Goodbye." I said when I reached the door.

I heard him say "Bye" as I closed the door behind me.

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Photos, this time from http://ilovewildfox.blogspot.com/

Friday, June 5, 2009

Funny Moment

Hey everyone, sorry I'm not posting these past few days have been crazy, always on the go.

I actually was home early yesterday but it was such a long day that I crashed at 10 something despite it being summer holiday.

Anyways, just wanted to tell u something funny that happened today.

Lemme give you a bit of background first. I'm having this party thing with my friends and family soon and so I went to get a cake with my dad-btw I got this really cute cake... it's SO funny, but that's not the point oo if I say what it looks like 7ada bikoon fa'6ee7a so anyways- I sent an invite via mobile to one of my friends that I haven't msged in a long time.

While we were choosing the cake and everything my phone rings oo 666***** appears... I'm thinking, huh, I don't know who this person is... So I answer and it turns out to be a guy and I'm like, "Mino?"

"He's like intay mino?"

Oo u know ilee I'm thinking wai3, kilish mo wagtik, bugg off... so I replied, "ra8am '3ala6" oo 9akatai 3ala wayha...

Anyways after that I get a msg in arabic and was about to delete it thinking its a stupid da3aya or something but then I pay attention to the number and it's that guy's number...

oo the msg says: asif wi9ali resala min hal ra8am 3ala 5a6i il thanee... oo then his name

I automatically delete it (by mistake) since I normally delete msgs after reading them.

Bas ba3dain istaw3abt that I think I sent him an invite to a party with my FAMILY and FRIENDS and it had the 3inwan and everything we were going to do. LOOL!!

I don't have the msg any longer and silly me, I forgot the name... ugh!! I'm an idiot to have deleted it....

I'm really curious as to who it is!

I told my friend this story oo istaw3abt ina ashwa this guy seemed to be mu7taram since he left his name there too... So I think he knows it's a mistake, phewww.

But at the same time 7asa he's going to drive by that night and see what's going on... that would be funny.

This all happened like 20 minutes ago or so.

But the funny part about all of this is that everytime I see a young guy after that msg, (I've become so paranoid) I think: IT'S HIM.

LOL

Btw, I promise, there will be a post, SOON. ;** love you all
hope u laugh at my expense ;*
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Part 16a

Sorry everyone hehe, I fell asleep on the table yesterday here was my note: Okay, I'm back.... listening to Mason Musso's (from Metro Station) song, You're From Above as I type part 16...
Check it out:

and I just got back from a party... thought I should continue it and post it... enjoy ;**
love you all ;**
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As soon as I reached his house I noticed that he was waiting on the chairs outside for me. He got up quickly to greet me but he didn't get the chance to come to me since I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder.

"I miss you." I whispered into his chest.

He hesitated at first but then I felt his arms wrap around me.

"Come inside, let's eat lunch."

We sat at the table and ate quietly. He kept looking at me and I kept looking at him, it felt so awkward.

"What's this all about Talah? You break up with me because I tried to kiss you and now you miss me?"

"What?" I stared at him gape faced.

"You're sending so many mixed signals and it's really unfair because I really like you!"

"I'm sorry." I replied, "It's just complicated."

"Well, then, uncomplicate it!" I could see the vains pop out and his muscles appear in his arms as he clenched his fists, "Do you know how frustrating this is for me?!"

"I--I Jo--sh" I stammered, "Oo--kay... I'm going to uncomplicate the whole thing...." I looked at his beautiful blue eyes that were now filled with confusion, "1) you are not a Kuwaiti ... and 2) you are not a muslim"

I could see that he grasped the concept as his eyes softened and he unclenched his fists, "Oh... Talah, it isn't a big deal."

"No, Josh, it is... in Kuwait it is! There isn't a future to this relationship!"

"How can u say that?!" He replied angrily.

"Josh, trust me, I really want to be with you... but there's no hope... I can let go the fact that you aren't Kuwaiti but I can't let go of the fact that you aren't a muslim." I tried to say it calmly but my voice was shivering, "So it's better to get out now then go deep."

"Is that why u met with Hassan?!"

That came out of nowhere, "Wait, are jealous?!"

We were both standing up right now, furious and fumed.

He came closer, "I'm jealous as hell, talah!!!!"

I looked at him, speechless, "Why?"

"WHY?! WHY TALAH?! ARE U SERIOUS?! Talah I'm falling for you... I try to kiss you and u seemed to want it to until u backed up and I let that slide... I didn't need that kiss... It was enough JUST BEING WITH YOU... I WAS SATISFIED... But then you break up with me!!! You break up with me.... and a week later you go out with HASSAN?! I'm JEALOUS TALAH, I'M JEALOUS!!"

I stayed silent. This is the first time I see him this mad and his face so red, he was always calmed down and laid back... he looked incredibly sexy like this.

I took a tiny step forward... and another one... and another one....

He was so furious that he didn't notice until I reached him.

"Josh?" I asked, looking up at him.

"Yes?" He replied angrily.

"I'm sorry." I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and crept closer to his face.

He looked confused as hell... my lips were next to his lips and then I moved them to his cheek.

"I'm sorry Josh... I really want to be with you... but I can't" I whispered into his ear.

I was sad yet scared at the same time because of how tense he was, I can feel it... I think he can hurt me if he wanted to, although he never would.

I moved my lips back in front of his and went even closer and brushed my lips against his.

This seemed to calm him down a bit.

I did it again, but this time I kissed him.

Monday, June 1, 2009

part 15b

I was frozen in my seat after he left and my eyes wouldn't move from where I last saw him; I stopped eating my icecream since I lost my appetite.

"Talah, you not want icecream?" MaiLee asked me, noticing that I wasn't eating. I snapped out of my zone.

"Um, yeah.. I think I'll just take it to go." I gave her a weak smile.

"Okay, Sure sure." She gave a bag and cover for it, "See you."

"Bye bye, see you soon."

As I left, I noticed that I forgot to go to Safeway. I got a trolley and walked inside just wondering what the hell I'm going to do.

I didn't pay attention to what I was getting or the choices I had of those things... the only choices that ran in my head were: Josh or get together with Hassan.

Hassan came from a respectable high-class family, one my family would definitly approve of.

But Josh, Josh, I think I'm in love with Josh. It may be too early for love but I'm definitly on the way.

Ugh.

I left the trolley in Safeway and went to my car. Focus on the road Talah. So I did and it was able to take my thoughts off guys.

I got home at about 12 and decided to go straight to Josh... I Miss him so freaking much.

So I checked myself in the mirror, I looked okay but I didn't bother to change... I wanted to get there ASAP.

So I got back in my car, sent Josh a msg that I'm on my way and off I went.

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sorry that its so short.. i put it as the continuation of 15 so its just the end of 15 and intro of 16.... i'm leaving the house now, going out with my friends. ;) as soon as I get back I'll start part 16 ;) ;)

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