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Sunday, September 27, 2009

part 22

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I opted for a brownie and icebreaker after that scene instead of the salad and water.

Here we go again with heartbreaks and heartaches.

I stormed out of the store and rushed straight home to the bed, opened the brownie and the icecream and ate the pain away while listening to rashid il majed's bala 7ob (cuteandcuddly suggestion hehe).


halfway through, my brooding time was over since i heard the doorbell ring... ugh, i don't even feel like getting up!!

but what can I do? the person was persistent, ringing it over and over again.

so i hauled my ass off the couch and opened the door.

"Wha---" I started as the person on the other side stormed in.

My brain was too slow and the person was too fast as he rushed in... I realized second later it was Josh.

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?! You don't want ME but you want to SABOTAGE MY RELATIONSHIPS?!" he screamed as he was stepping back and forth.

okay, now this ISN'T okay.... I shut the door, "ME??!?!?!?! I didn't do anything!!!!"

and if he wasn't already furious, i don't know what he was, but now he's even angrier, he stopped pacing back and forth and faced me, his eyes in attack mode, "TALAH! NO MY GREAT AUNT KELLY!!! WHO ELSE?!?!?!! AND YES YES YOU DID!!!!!! you were so immature!!!! and so attacking and soooo soooo"

"I'M THE ONE THAT'S BEING IMMATURE?!?!? YOU SHOULD TRY HEARING YOURSELF JOSH!!!!! YOU CAN'T EVEN SPEAK IN COMPLETE SENTENCES AND YOU'RE MAJORING IN ENGLISH!!!!! AND THE WAY YOU'RE TREATING SHERRY... UGH! I CAN'T EVEN START THERE!!!"


he came closer so quickly, i'm sure it was war now, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WAY I TREAT SHERRY?!!?!"

"YOU'RE JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME JEALOUS!" I replied as I stood on my toes to reach his height, ugh this isn't fair! why'd guys have to be taller? the power goes to them!


He face was right above mine by now, he brought his face right down to mine, "what'd you mean jealous, don't you get it Talah? I'm over you." He replied softly which suprised both him and I.


"That's not true, Josh." I whispered.


"Yes, yes it is Talah." I can feel myself loosing him, he started to turn... This is too fast, I still need time with him... I can't get enough of him....

I see him for an hour, I miss him the next, I'm not ready to let go.

"Josh, please." I croaked as I grabbed his arm.

He turned around and swooped me up in his arms. We both can't take it anymore.

I smiled when I realized what was going to happen.




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Mino bida jam3a aw madrisa ilyoum? O how was your day?

Any people new to highschool or jam3a?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

part 21

"Oh" I replied, the pain and hurt stabbing my heart and chest. stop it!


"So how do you two know each other?" Sherry asked us.


"Well " I started then paused.... ummm... what'd do I say to that, it was kinda awkward. KIND OF? it was freakingly insanely awkward.

"We used to date?" Josh asked as if he wasn't even sure.


OUCH.


"Yeah, we did date." I said while looking in his eyes the whole time, "I don't know why he's asking. We did. Date."


"Oh, really? So we did date Talah? You didn't just string me up and show me off around?" His eyes burning into mine.


"YES, we did." I replied firmly, "I can't believe what you're thinking right now!!! I didn't string you around!" I'm literally trying to hold myself in place and keep my voice down instead of attacking him.


He couldn't hold his nerves, he took a step closer.

We practically forgot about Miss Sherry next to him.


"Oh, yeah, what'd you call our *rolling his eyes* relationship."


"Wow, how mature Josh."


"What'd you want me to say, Talah?"



"Say to what?! I can't believe you thought I was fake with you! I can't believe you're thinking none of it was real." Tears were now forming in my eyes. STUPID LOVE TEARS! I just came for some salad and a soda and now I got this whole argument and now I'm the tears are turning into drops....


STUPID LOVE DROPS!


"At the time, it felt so real, but after, after Talah, it really hurt, you just used me."



"Ahem." Miss Sherri cleared her little throat reminding us that she was still there.


Woah. whoops.


I took a step back and so did Josh.


"Sorry, Sherri." I apologized while my eyes were glued to the floor.


She turned to Josh, "Obviously, you're going through some stuff right now. I'm sorry Josh, but I just need to know if you're over her or you're not..... I for one don't want to be strung along or be a toy just to make someone else jealous."


Oh man, I felt so bad for her.. shoot, what'd we just do!


"No, Sherri" He replied softly, "I'm sorry, really.... don't worry," He looked over at me, his eyes in mine, "I'm over it."

Ouch.


Okay, the burning, stinging pain is back. please don't say that, please!



Sherri looked from me to him, she saw him take a stab at me with the "over it" .....

"You know what Josh?! I need to go home. I honestly can't deal with you two right now. I'm over drama and I'm sensing drama over this whole scene!"


"Sherry-"

"-home, now! Please."


He grunted.... and eyed me, like I ruined his new relationship!


He walked out and Sherry was following him

until he was out, she turned around, came up to me,

and said: "Stay strong, Talah. I'm sorry about this whole scene. I'm sure he's not ready for a relationship.. I felt it the whole time I was with him, and now I know why."

She patted my arm, "Take it easy, and I understand how you feel, breakups are messy, and guys can be jerks. Take care."


And just like that she was gone.


And just like that I knew I loved her and never could've hated her even if she did date Josh.


And just like that I felt so bad b/c in our relationship I was the jerk.


And just like that I realized why I'm not ready for Hassan.



I'm still heals over head in love with Josh.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

part 20

part 19 is up oo 3eedkum mbarak!

For the next week, I spent my whole time with 7assan and Chloe.

Chloe by day, 7assan by night oo etc.


Hassan was constantly flirting, making me smile, and touching me bas I wasn't ready to take a step forward.

And Chloe was nice enough not to mention Josh or anything although it killed me that I didn't see him.


Until a week later, when I ran into him at a restaurant.

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"Talah?"

"Josh, is that you.. heyy, how is everything."

He looked so good in his jeans and t-shirt and his piercing blue eyes as blue and beautiful as ever.

"everything's good...umm, how about you?"

I was about to reply when an arm wraps itself around Josh's arm with a manicured hand connected to it on one side and a beautiful blond face and body on the other.

"Hi there." She greeted me, smiling this hundred watt smile.

"Hey." I said looking from her to Josh.


"Talah, this is -"

"-Sherry." She offered me her french manicured hand.

"She's my girlfriend."

"Ah, hey." I was stunned, and silenced.... what do I say to that exactly.

"Yeah, hey Talah." She looked at me blankly, like she didn't know what to say.

"Hey, that's nice! How long have you been together?" I asked.

"Well, I met him 4 weeks ago.... "

"Yeah, at a party." Josh continued.

"And he was the sweetest thing ever."

"Yeah, I know." I commented under my breath.

Pain was surging up my chest.

Ta3abt

Ya3ni 7asa ina mali ma3na.

They make me feel like crap.


I thought I'm done loosing friends, 6ila3 la2, loosing friends is my specialty- AM I THAT FORGETTABLE!?

I try, I make an effort!

wallah i'm tired of feeling this way, i'm tired of feeling left out, i'm tired of feeling unwanted, & I'm tired of this PAIN & HURT.


if they really "missed" me like they say, they should make an effort to see me.

lies lies lies!


whatever,

6af....


BTW PART 19 IS UP!!

oo 3eedkum mbarak!!

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

part 19

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I looked down at Josh..

"What am I going to do with you?" I whispered and shook my head.

He looked up at me from where he sat on the floor with his big blue eyes, filled with confusion and so lost.

"Come on."

"I'm sleepyy." He slurred as he accepted my hand.

"Yeah, I know.... you smell terrible!"

"First time I ever drank, Talahhh."

I sighed.

"Come on, let's go get you cleaned up."

"Why, Talah?" He asked sleepily as I helped him walk to a guestroom.

"Why, what?"

"Why'd you hurt me like this. We should've known what we were getting ourselves into."

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I didn't see Josh after then for about a month or so after because two weeks after the party, I went back to Kuwait with Haya.

It was nice to spend the time with family, such a big change to uni life. I missed everyone here.


Anyways, I said my goodbyes again and went back to the states two weeks later.


Hassan was waiting for me at the airport (we kept in touch the whole time and he got back a day earlier than me).

"Hallah shloonich?" He greeted me.

"Hassan!" I jumped on him which I think might have frightened him, hehe. He comes from such a respective family in Kuwait, I'm pretty sure he's not that used to a huge change like me.

I mean my family is respective (we're probably at the same level) but I'm kind of a rebel (in Kuwait's terms of innocent, I would be a rebel).

"Hallah, awa9lich il bait?"

"La2, mali 5ulg, let's go get icecream!!!"

"Talah, chinich yahil."

I pouted and he smiled, "Yallah 5anroo7." ;)

We got to the icecream place and while waiting in line, he asked me: "Ma sa2altich lail7en, bas Talah, sh9ar ma3a Josh?"

"Walah shay."

"Wala shay." He echoed stunned, "Ya3ni ma kalamti?"

"Shaklik itshawig winta mi7tar." I teased as I poked his arm.

"Tallahhhhh." He groaned, annoyed.

"La2 makalamta 7asoon."

"Ya3ni shloon, you're free il7een."

I took a moment to think about it. Really think about it. I had a month to think about it, and now I had to face both of them.

"Ee, ana free." I replied.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Happy Ramadhan!!!

Hey everyone... I know it's late, but MBARAK 3ALAIKUM IL SHAHAR!!! :)

better late then never. ;)


how are you all doing?!

I've missed you.


I know you're going to kill me for this but, people, I honestly forgot about the blogs and stories... like I read other people's blogs but I completely forgot about mine until I got an email that people are commenting on my blog....

oops.


lol;p

anyways, I'll try to update the upcoming days.


Love you all ;**

Hi, My Name Is...


PS: Do any of you know if they sell Blackberry external battery chargers anywhere in Kuwait?

Friday, July 10, 2009

part 18b

LOOL i'm an idiot, posted on the wrong blog... here it is. ;)

thank you for commenting anon, one of my silent readers. :D ;*
and wonderland, socail butterfly, and mary poppins. :D

part 18a was up, read it.... comment. ;) :D
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"JOSH!" I screamed, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING."

But he didn't hear me because Hassan hit him back... punched him would be the right word.

I couldn't see what's happening, who was on who but I heard a lot of grunts.

"HASAN OGAF!!! BASSS!!!!!! JOSH STOP IT!!!!!!!!" I screamed. I didn't what to do. I put my arm on someone's back but they pushed me away.

"BAS YOU GUYS STOP!!! ENOUGH!!!" I started crying.

Faj2a wa7id thalith dash ma3aahum yiwa5irhum 3an ba3a'6... intibahat oo 6ila3 Alex.
He was pushing them away from each other.

There was blood and bruises and they looked like they want to kill each other. Josh kept wanting to get out of Alex's grasp but because of how drunk he was, he couldn't.

I put both hands on Hassan's arms while tears were falling from my eyes, "7asan, bas!!!"


He wanted to fight back... he was trying to shove me off. He had a bruise on his face, his lips were bleeding and he had a bunch of other bruises on his hands. Josh's nose was bleeding, his chin was bruised and also had a bunch of bruises.

Hassan was breathing heavily, he turned to me, the anger still in his eyes, "I7na it5arajna! i7na bil jam3a!!!! shal yahel?!!? goolay 7ag rab3ich 5al yi3arfoon mino yi6igoon! it3arfeena i7na shabab il kuwait, man gan9ir bil hwash.... fahmee! wain ga3deen? Highschool is over!" kalmany ba3dain 9ara5 3ala Josh.

"You $#@! $% !@#$% @#% , you D&*$, you F*&$#*(* D*&$!" Josh howled back oo ohwa sakran.

Hassan wa5ar 3ani oo bida yamshi, "il '6ahar may3arif shino i7na il q8iyeen insawii.... 5al a3alma, a2adba."

I was scared to death! In highschool, the guys used to bring all sorts of stuff, knives, metal.... everything..... but thank God Hassan was walking away toward his car.

Alex let go of Josh, as Josh fell to the ground. He came to me, "Talah, are you okay?" He pulled me to him.

"I dunno." I whimpered into his chest. I felt comforted straight away. You know Jasper from Twilight and how he changes the mood? That's how Alex is, he makes things calmer, better. It kind of cleared my head as we stood there for two minute, quietly. It was great to have a friend like that. My tears stopped, I stayed for another minute until I was ready to get back to reality.

Alex let go of me and went to Josh, "Come one big guy, time to get you to a room."

"Umm, actually Alex, can I take him."

He looked at me, "You sure?"

I breathed, "Yes." I replied as I exhaled.

"Take care, my T."

"Okay, thanks so much Alex." I replied as he hugged me again.

"If you need anything, you know where to get me." He whispered into my hair while I hugged back.

"Thanks so much Al, you're a really good friend."

Why I Love Alex Gaskarth

and of course Jack Barakat. :)



I LOVE the whole band. So much.

WARNING: some things are inappropriate.... definitely PG 17 maybe hahaha;p

this may be boring.... i just love them. if u have nothing else to do, and are bored to death, watch these. :P





"Bling" "Blang"
"Manwhore" "Jack Barakat"









Something that made me love Alex even much much more:



and his reply:



his reaction:



him singing with them:



the end:





OMG: hahaha













and the ADORABLE Matt:






WHY I LOVE ALEX EVEN MORE:



and more; much much more:





part 18

It stung so much seeing him drink.


We once talked about alcohol and stuff and he said that I found the right American teenager because he detests alcohol.


He hates what it does to people, "it makes them not in control, I never drank alcohol and never will." (the words he said as he shrugged)


And I thought he was an angel sent from heaven because as we all know alcohol 7ARAM, may9eer inchoofa walla nishriba walla nishtirii walla inbi3aa.


So seeing him in front of my eyes drinking one after another and flirting with a ton of girls and kissing them hurt me so much to the point that I couldn't stand.


So I left Hassan without a word and sat down on a couch with my back to Josh.


This isn't him! I want to scream STOP! but I know it's not my buisness anymore, I made it that way.


Hasan came next to me and wrapped his strong arm around my weak body, "Talah, ma3alaich mina... tara ohwa za3lan... a3arif shkithir yi7ibich.... ohwa moo chithii, tadreen hatha moo Josh....yabee yi6ali3 7arita.... 5aliii..."


I looked at Hasan and gained much more respect for him. 7atan law kan yabee yi9eer ma3ay daafa3 3an il walad il thanii.


I couldn't help but to give him a kiss on the cheek as a thank you. He pulled me closer to him and let me rest on his shoulder.


"Digeega, ba6la3 bara 9aar wayid za7ma."


"Yallah ayee ma3ach."


We got up and I didn't even look back at Josh, I didn't want to see what else was going on.


Mmmmmmm.... I inhaled. The fresh air outside felt great. I sat on this huge rock in the garden outside the house.


We were the only two outside. Hasan stood gazing at the sky or whatever.


"Hassan ri7t ay thanawiya?"


"ASK."


"Ah, a3arif wayid nas ihnak........ it3arif Hala Al ******? Oo Sarah Al *****? Oooo Fahad Al ***? Ali ****?" and I went on and on.

"Ooola shway shway." He laughed, "eeee, mit5arjeen ma3a ba3a'6....... it3arfeenhum kilihum?"

"Eee... bas laish ma a3arfik." :S

"Hehe, madri." He winked.


We heard the door open and saw Josh storming out. Well not storming, he was completely drunk so he was kind of swaying/storming. I got up and Hasan and I saw him as he approached us.

His eyes were bloodshot, his hair was messy, and his hairs started forming his beard.

"Josh." I started but I couldn't say anything because the next thing I saw was


Josh's hand clenched into a fist meeting Hasan's face.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Fourth!

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY EVERYONE!!!!!

I had a spectacular time with my family and cousins.

We did BBQ and ate salads and sandwiches and stuff.... of course we had to have our apple pies and key lime pies with vanilla ice cream, DELICIOUS!

The kids were just so adorable!!!! I love them so much.

Fireworks yesterday were nice and right now there are fireworks outside.


I mayyy go swimming tomorrow.


Did any of you guys celebrate the 4th of July?

If so, what did you?

;****

Hi, My Name Is....

Friday, June 26, 2009

R.I.P Micheal Jackson

Allah yir7ima. :'(



I can't wrap my mind around it that he's gone. I wasn't like a fan fan as I am with singers and bands but he is amazing.

I mean seriously, he's been singing since was like what, 6?!

And Thriller? Billie Jean? Will You Be There, beautiful song from Free Willy? Moonwalk? Beat It? HIS DANCING?

Need I say more?





I don't care what people think;

He was amazing;

He was wonderful;

He was spectacular;





He was just down-right phenomenal.



Moment of silence for MJ; rest in peace.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Part 17

Three days later:


I'm headed to the airport to pick up Hayoo right now... her airplane arrives at 3 and it's 3:10 right now. I'm soo incredibly late.


I concentrated my thoughts on something other than my lateness and again, as always, Josh occuppied my mind. I realized that, what, I've only known Josh for about a month?! I felt as though we've been together FOREVER.

He really became one of my closest friends in a reallly short amount of time. Is that dangerous?


Bas we weren't only friends, we were-and still are- in love. People don't find this kind of connection anywhere!

I parked my car... it was 3:20 now..... thank God my phone didn't ring... I guess Hayoo still isn't done with her bags and stuff. To get into Cali, you have to take a picture, do a finger print and go through scanning your bags again and that takes a while.

Anyways, I know she'll love Josh!


Mooo im9adga inhya yaya!! And today is THE perfect day since Alex is having a get together and everyone's coming (Chloe, Josh, Eric, Nick, Alexa, Laila, Hannah, Alex, oo Jana) oo lots of other people.

I got inside and thankfully, she was nowhere insight. I fixed my hair and tugged on my top while waiting for her.


Five minutes later I saw her familiar figure walking out. She had braided her hair, had her sunglasses ready in her hand, wore a white tanktop oo a pink cardigan on top, jean shorts, and fliflops. She's so ready for California! I thought to myself as I called her.



"TALAHHHH!" She came to me running and hugged me so hard. I didn't realize how much I missed her until that moment! I hugged her back and her smell enveloped me completely. She had on her Vera Wang Princess perfume... she never leaves anywhere without it... oo kil mara ashima athakirha.


"Hehe, 7ilfay?"


"Wallah.... ashwa inee yait!" She winked, "oo tarah 7adii mistansa 3ala il laila! abee achoof kilman!"


"Hehhe ee!!! kilman yisa2l 3anich..... widhum yichooofoonich!!!"


Oo we talked all the way home... suwalifna ana oo Hayoo... Waii I miss her!


I got home knowing that Chloe will be there, she said she wanted to meet her and couldn't wait. So we got home and I opened the door and called her name but I didn't hear her so I just thought she wasn't there.


We took Haya's bags to her room and went to the kitchen to drink water when we heard moaning sounds.

Uh oh. I thought, I giggle was about to erupt from me. Chloeee! I thought to myself shaking my head.


"Talah?" Haya asked looking at me curiously. 7igartha oo da5alt il 9alah, "Chloe." 5azatha. Wa5irat 3an Matt ishway oo radat 3alai ya3ni innocent, "Heyy Talah, did ur friend arrive?"
Oo Matt blushed, nazal rasa oo waved to me, "Hi-ya."

Oo I can't help but to laugh! I caught them multiple times making out. And every time, Matt gets completely embarrassed, I guess he's still not okay with the fact he's dating one of his students and embarrassed that he can't control himself-atleast that's what Chloe says.


But I don't mind, I actually think they look so cute together. So i nudged Matt and told him and Chloe, "You guys, I'd like you to meet Haya."

Matt mad eeda, "Hey Haya, nice to meet you."

"You too Matt," Radat 3alai while eyeing him appreciativly. A smile crept on my face, I knew what she was thinking, "I've heard so much about you."

Matt glanced at me, "Good I hope?"

"Yes, 90210 hottie look a like" Haya replied which made us all smile.

"Are you the famous Chloe?!" She asked Chloe.

"YOU must be the famous Haya!" Chloe was already standing up, "and we've heard so much about you." She hugged Haya.

"Vice versa. And you can get back to making out, you guys look cute together!" Haya galatluhum oo ihya mistansa while I blushed.

"I love you already!" Chloe replied as she sat in Matt's lap and gave him a kiss before returning to us, "What are you girlies wearing tonight?"

"Going to choose now." I replied.

"I hear both Josh and Hassan are going tonight." Chloe hinted and I glared at her, "dress up wisely." She winked and they all laughed.

"Thank you for having fun with my drama filled love life." I commented sarcastically.

"ALL of you are paying, you're all going to help me dress for tonight, including you Matt, we need a guy's a opinion."

"Fine with me." Haya and Chloe said in unison.

Matt looked helpless from once face to another, "there's no chance in hell I can run away?"

"Trust me, you'll have three girls chasing you, you won't be able to outrun us."

He sighed and dragged himself of the chair, "Okay."

We spent the day fooling around, joking, Chloe and Matt making out constantly and flirting, until we got the perfect outfits for me, Chloe, and Haya.

We were all ready to go to the party so we headed out. I drove with Haya next to me while Chloe and Matt sat in the back and were having a makeout-fest.




We got to Alex's house and piled out of the car.







"Little Talah, what up what up?!" He greeted me like always.





I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a big bear hug, "I've missed you little Alex! And I
want you meet Haya."



"Aw man, I've missed you too. Haya, so nice meeting you! Tiny, tiny Haya." He commented which made me laugh. (She's so petite, soooo thin and so short.)






Haya laughed it off and went with Chloe since she was tugging her in to meet everyone.



I stayed at the door with Alex, wanting to catch up.





His eyes were glittering, "You didn't tell me, what did you think about the date?! Man, Josh and
I worked so hard on it."



Ooh right, I forgot, he was helping Josh with my date.






"Alex!!! You were!! Helping him! OMG it was the BEST DATE EVER!! So cuute since the beggining I loveeeed it!!! It was perfect!!!!"




He smiled a huge smile showing he was proud of their accomplishment.



"Where's Josh? I haven't seen him since then."



"Wait, he didn't tell you?"



"Tell me what?"



"We broke up." I replied silently.

His expression changed from a smirk to shocked, shocked.




He was about to say something when Josh's car came up from behind me. He parked his car and went into the house acknowledging us with a nod.



Alex was speechless.




I shrugged, "long story."




"Who broke up with who?"




"I broke up with him, but I really don't want to." I replied guitily.



"Why then?"


Alex had this air around him, he was an amazing person, I felt as though I could tell him anything. I trust him so much.

I sighed, "it's hard, it's just, like, in general, religion differences. It's a big issue."



I think he understood; I heard his parents got divorced over issues like religion and race.. He nodded and said, "I'll talk to him."



He gave me a hug, kissed my hair and in we went.



Haya was already introduced and was hanging out with Jana and Jake and Eric. I'm pretty sure Jana and Jake were hitting it off and Haya was eyeing Eric and vice-versa.



Music suddenly filled the room and everyone started to dance. I joined in and we boogyed all night long.


Josh was there but he wasn't dancing. I saw him laughing and touching and flirting with 3 different girls, it sung, but what can I do? I have to get over him.




Suddenly I feel these arms around me, definitely man arms, they belong to Hassan.


I turned around and he danced with me. We danced together for a while, just laughing, having our fun.



I felt someone staring at me the whole time, I turned to the source to find out Josh's eyes luring on us while he was kissing a girl.



I felt a burn rush through my body, I was jealous as hell.


But I concentrated all my thoughts on dancing with Hassan, that's all I could do.



But everytime I turned and saw Josh, he was taking another swig, another alcoholic drink, and flirting and dancing way too innapproipratly with other girls.







I never saw him drink before.



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the long awaited part 17
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I'm Back

Oh man, shoot me, shoot me now readers.

I never forgot you guys, I swear, I think of you daily!

My internet didn't work for FIVE days; I swear I was going to kill myself! Thank God I had my blackberry!

Other than that, I traveled! :D I'm in Las Vegas right now; woohoo!

And I'm working on the post since I finally have internet + time!

Other than that, I posted two normal posts... trust me, read them! ;) lots of advice for all of you. :)

Love you all so much ;**

You see how much happier I am? (You'll understand when you read Ls of the World ;) )

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My Mission!

People! People! People!

I was on a MISSION. I mission to get taller.

That was actually my phrase I'd use when telling people: "insert name, I'M ON A MISSION, insert name, TO GET TALLER!!!"

My trainer said that girls have until the age 22 or something to keep getting taller.

So since I LOVE drinking milk by itself. *side note: I can't believe people don't like drinking milk! It shocks me! HOW can u not drink cold milk by itself?* Oh well... Anyways, since I loooove drinking milk as it is by itself, I decided I would drink it more times in a day since my trainer answered my question of how much I can drink milk by saying as long as it's FAT FREE, as much as I want.

PERFECT!!!! I never realized that I can intake something I love as much as I want. For more than a month I upped my fat free milk intake with 5 or more filled glasses per day... mmm.. yummy!


And guess what?!

Today morning when I woke up, prayed, brushed my teeth and came to the living room where my family was, and my older sister was standing next to me.

First of all, she's older than me. Second of all, we're the same height exactly but she may have been taller by an inch or less.

But today she was like: "Mama! Hi, My Name Is... 6alat! A6wal minee!" Whaaat? I thought. So we stood next to each other, and guess what? It's TRUE!!!! woohooooo, in your face, everyone who doubted me when I told them about my mission!

Anyways, I'll update you guys on if it's true and any improvements. ;)

BTW, I'm 18. ;)


Drink up, girls! (And guys, if there are any reading this. ;p)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

The Ls of the World

Okay okay, so this post was going to be filled with hate and hurt and pain because that was the way I felt after I saw a person who I thought was my best friend driving a car with lots of other girls and she didn't even tell me she was driving or to ride or anything today.

It as a SLAP to the face.

BUT,

I talked to a loyal friend and she gave me great advice that was all true....let's call her, L. And now this post is all about love and respect.

Now, I want to dedicate this post to all people out there who are like her.... those who are THERE for you, those who care.


This person, L, although we aren't as close as we used to be, she's ALWAYS there for me no matter what.

I asked her what to do when a person treats you like trash when to you she's your best friend. Do you guys have that type of best friend?

Anyways, she was like she would talk to them and I said that she wasn't the kind to talk. She asked if it was M (That girl who I thought was my best friend;p) and so I said yes. I tell you, I'd trust L with my life!

She told me the truth to my face, that M was moving away and that it was a slap to the face and that I should wake up to the reality.

She was absolutely right!

BTW, she wasn't telling me this in a mean way, she was telling me this in the right way (Plus this is just the overall general thing); and it's not like she's talking about something she doesn't know, the three of us, L, M, and I were close in the past for a while but we aren't as close but we you know how it is, we all go to the same school and she knows me so freaking well I don't know how she does. I've been through so much with her (good & bad & hard times).


Anyways, I always thought I was this happy, positive, optimistic person. But she made me realize I wasn't... I wasn't happy in a while. I was being treated like sh--.

It wasn't always like this, I'm pretty sure there was a time about four years ago when things were really good, where we actually cared about each other.

But not anymore. And L made me realize that. I cried so much today.

She woke me up to reality. The reality being that this is the end of a lie I let myself live with for a while now.

And I realized I really wasn't happy or positive, if I were, I would've concentrated on the good things in life.

And at that moment, I got an epiphany.

I have so many good people in my life that do care about me. I should stop concentrating on people who have been close to me for a long time and put them as a priority when to them I'm only a choice. I did have other people who I can tell actually cared about me.

I feel refreshed, and happy at this moment moment, after talking to her. I am ready for a new beginning.

And I am ready to be genuinely happy again.

This post goes out to all the people like L.

I love her so freaking much and look up to her and respect, you have no idea how much.

You have no idea what emotions and feelings and realizations went through me today. This is just a general idea.


I just wanted to tell you all this quote I love and how to true it is:

"Don't make someone your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing."

Amen to that! ;)

I feel thankful I built a strong bond with other people because I did make M my everything for a while, I let her in so much, she was like family to me and my family.


This post goes to L, and all the amazing and wonderful people like her who are honest, strong, caring, openhearted friends that just keep u on track.

This post is for her, she's just truly amazing, and I want the world to know her.


A note for you readers: be happy; focus on the good parts of life, SERIOUSLY; DON'T make anyone your priority when ur just an option; and don't make a person your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Honesty

Honestly, I didn't get a chance AT ALL to finish the new part before I post...

I've been super busy these days and this is actually the first time since the last post I get a few breathing minutes to sit on the computer so I can tell you guys, it's still not ready....


MAYBE tomorrow..

XOXOX...

Sorry times infinity.

love you all,

Hi, My Name Is...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Teaser for the next part :P

I know inee 7adee ma9a5tha o lazim I finish the next part, but trust me, it's going to be good. :)

Action, action, and more action.

Just a teaser for what's happening next.

1) Haya's in town!
2) Party at Alex's house (guy from swimming pool get-together) "little Talah"
3) Hmm... who is going to be at that party? Talah, Josh, and Hasan in one room? Chloe & Matt? What goes on?

You'll find out.... SOON. ;)

love you all,
Hi, My Name Is...

Btw, the Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? Finale is up... read & comment (A) hehe. :D

I HEART YOU ALL ;**

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Part 16b

Its short but its a continuation of part 16a... expect another post today or tomorrow ;***


SO sorry about the typo.... it's Talah not Chloe, haha ;) ;* .... my internet didn't work so i couldn't fix... fixing it now ;*

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At first he wouldn’t respond. I ran my hands through his hair, kissed him harder and then he started kissing me back. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer.


I thought of Chloe at that moment and her kisses with Matt… she said he’s 11.5 out of 10…. I’m pretty sure this kiss would score a 12.5.

Josh left one hand on my waist while his other hand came up to my hair where he pulled my head closer. I felt his lips smile against mine.


I can’t help but to smile too.


Our lips parted since we needed to breath but his face stayed really close to mine, “What was that Talah?” He whispered in his sexy voice.


That snapped me back to reality, to why I kissed him in the first place.


I looked into those beautiful eyes, “That was curiosity; your curiosity” I paused, “and mine.”


“Mmm..” He said as he pressed his lips against me again

, this time he was kissing me, this time, softer.

“Why do I have a feeling you’re kissing me when you’re trying to say something else. Is this goodbye?” He asked when we paused.


I looked back into his eyes, exhaled, and said as a tear fell from my eye, “Yes Josh, this is goodbye.”

He ran his finger across my cheekbone then removed the tear. He came in one last time for a long and sad kiss.


The tears were rushing out of my eyes by then as we kissed for that last time, "I'm sorry Josh." I whispered into his ear as we hugged.


"I love you, Talah." He replied.


"We're still going to be friends aren't we?"


He laughed, "Definitely, idiot!"


"But I'll still have feelings for you."


"I know, and I'll still love you." He replied as he wiped tears away from my face.


"Okay, I've got to go now."


"Okay, I'll see you around, Talah." He replied as he smiled but the sadness showed in his eyes.


"I'll see you around, Josh... Goodbye." I said when I reached the door.


I heard him say "Bye" as I closed the door behind me.


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Photos, this time from http://ilovewildfox.blogspot.com/





































Friday, June 5, 2009

Funny Moment

Hey everyone, sorry I'm not posting these past few days have been crazy, always on the go.

I actually was home early yesterday but it was such a long day that I crashed at 10 something despite it being summer holiday.

Anyways, just wanted to tell u something funny that happened today.

Lemme give you a bit of background first. I'm having this party thing with my friends and family soon and so I went to get a cake with my dad-btw I got this really cute cake... it's SO funny, but that's not the point oo if I say what it looks like 7ada bikoon fa'6ee7a so anyways- I sent an invite via mobile to one of my friends that I haven't msged in a long time.

While we were choosing the cake and everything my phone rings oo 666***** appears... I'm thinking, huh, I don't know who this person is... So I answer and it turns out to be a guy and I'm like, "Mino?"

"He's like intay mino?"

Oo u know ilee I'm thinking wai3, kilish mo wagtik, bugg off... so I replied, "ra8am '3ala6" oo 9akatai 3ala wayha...


Anyways after that I get a msg in arabic and was about to delete it thinking its a stupid da3aya or something but then I pay attention to the number and it's that guy's number...

oo the msg says: asif wi9ali resala min hal ra8am 3ala 5a6i il thanee... oo then his name

I automatically delete it (by mistake) since I normally delete msgs after reading them.

Bas ba3dain istaw3abt that I think I sent him an invite to a party with my FAMILY and FRIENDS and it had the 3inwan and everything we were going to do. LOOL!!

I don't have the msg any longer and silly me, I forgot the name... ugh!! I'm an idiot to have deleted it....

I'm really curious as to who it is!


I told my friend this story oo istaw3abt ina ashwa this guy seemed to be mu7taram since he left his name there too... So I think he knows it's a mistake, phewww.


But at the same time 7asa he's going to drive by that night and see what's going on... that would be funny.

This all happened like 20 minutes ago or so.

But the funny part about all of this is that everytime I see a young guy after that msg, (I've become so paranoid) I think: IT'S HIM.

LOL


Btw, I promise, there will be a post, SOON. ;** love you all
hope u laugh at my expense ;*
Hi, My Name Is...

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Part 16a

Sorry everyone hehe, I fell asleep on the table yesterday here was my note: Okay, I'm back.... listening to Mason Musso's (from Metro Station) song, You're From Above as I type part 16...
Check it out:

and I just got back from a party... thought I should continue it and post it... enjoy ;**
love you all ;**
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As soon as I reached his house I noticed that he was waiting on the chairs outside for me. He got up quickly to greet me but he didn't get the chance to come to me since I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder.

"I miss you." I whispered into his chest.

He hesitated at first but then I felt his arms wrap around me.

"Come inside, let's eat lunch."

We sat at the table and ate quietly. He kept looking at me and I kept looking at him, it felt so awkward.

"What's this all about Talah? You break up with me because I tried to kiss you and now you miss me?"

"What?" I stared at him gape faced.

"You're sending so many mixed signals and it's really unfair because I really like you!"

"I'm sorry." I replied, "It's just complicated."

"Well, then, uncomplicate it!" I could see the vains pop out and his muscles appear in his arms as he clenched his fists, "Do you know how frustrating this is for me?!"

"I--I Jo--sh" I stammered, "Oo--kay... I'm going to uncomplicate the whole thing...." I looked at his beautiful blue eyes that were now filled with confusion, "1) you are not a Kuwaiti ... and 2) you are not a muslim"

I could see that he grasped the concept as his eyes softened and he unclenched his fists, "Oh... Talah, it isn't a big deal."

"No, Josh, it is... in Kuwait it is! There isn't a future to this relationship!"

"How can u say that?!" He replied angrily.

"Josh, trust me, I really want to be with you... but there's no hope... I can let go the fact that you aren't Kuwaiti but I can't let go of the fact that you aren't a muslim." I tried to say it calmly but my voice was shivering, "So it's better to get out now then go deep."

"Is that why u met with Hassan?!"

That came out of nowhere, "Wait, are jealous?!"

We were both standing up right now, furious and fumed.

He came closer, "I'm jealous as hell, talah!!!!"

I looked at him, speechless, "Why?"

"WHY?! WHY TALAH?! ARE U SERIOUS?! Talah I'm falling for you... I try to kiss you and u seemed to want it to until u backed up and I let that slide... I didn't need that kiss... It was enough JUST BEING WITH YOU... I WAS SATISFIED... But then you break up with me!!! You break up with me.... and a week later you go out with HASSAN?! I'm JEALOUS TALAH, I'M JEALOUS!!"

I stayed silent. This is the first time I see him this mad and his face so red, he was always calmed down and laid back... he looked incredibly sexy like this.

I took a tiny step forward... and another one... and another one....

He was so furious that he didn't notice until I reached him.

"Josh?" I asked, looking up at him.

"Yes?" He replied angrily.

"I'm sorry." I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and crept closer to his face.

He looked confused as hell... my lips were next to his lips and then I moved them to his cheek.

"I'm sorry Josh... I really want to be with you... but I can't" I whispered into his ear.

I was sad yet scared at the same time because of how tense he was, I can feel it... I think he can hurt me if he wanted to, although he never would.

I moved my lips back in front of his and went even closer and brushed my lips against his.

This seemed to calm him down a bit.

I did it again, but this time I kissed him.

Monday, June 1, 2009

part 15b

I was frozen in my seat after he left and my eyes wouldn't move from where I last saw him; I stopped eating my icecream since I lost my appetite.

"Talah, you not want icecream?" MaiLee asked me, noticing that I wasn't eating. I snapped out of my zone.

"Um, yeah.. I think I'll just take it to go." I gave her a weak smile.

"Okay, Sure sure." She gave a bag and cover for it, "See you."

"Bye bye, see you soon."

As I left, I noticed that I forgot to go to Safeway. I got a trolley and walked inside just wondering what the hell I'm going to do.

I didn't pay attention to what I was getting or the choices I had of those things... the only choices that ran in my head were: Josh or get together with Hassan.

Hassan came from a respectable high-class family, one my family would definitly approve of.

But Josh, Josh, I think I'm in love with Josh. It may be too early for love but I'm definitly on the way.

Ugh.

I left the trolley in Safeway and went to my car. Focus on the road Talah. So I did and it was able to take my thoughts off guys.

I got home at about 12 and decided to go straight to Josh... I Miss him so freaking much.

So I checked myself in the mirror, I looked okay but I didn't bother to change... I wanted to get there ASAP.

So I got back in my car, sent Josh a msg that I'm on my way and off I went.


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sorry that its so short.. i put it as the continuation of 15 so its just the end of 15 and intro of 16.... i'm leaving the house now, going out with my friends. ;) as soon as I get back I'll start part 16 ;) ;)
love you all,
--hi, my name is...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

part 15

The next five days passed by really slowly. I tried to get over Josh but I just couldn't and he didn't help at all; he kept calling and texting me. It was getting harder and harder for me to not see him.

On Wednesday my phone rang with a local area number: *256****5 but it wasn't a number I knew and I'm sure it wasn't a 1-800 call.

"Aloo?" I answered, wondering who it is.

"Hallah Talah, shloonich?" A manly voice replied, "Ana 7asan."

Ah, Hassan Al-*****! He's one of the few other Kuwaitis studying in San Mateo College. I hang out with him at uni and let me tell you, he's a sight for sore eyes; especially sore eyes that hasn't seen 5aleeji guys in so long. I used to have a mini-crush on him (and Josh) when we first started college but he's just a friend and we never exchanged numbers or met outside of class but he's calling me for some reason.

"Oh, hii... ana zaina il 7amdilla, shloonik inta? 5ala9t il public speaking speech?"

"Hehe" He chuckled, oh man his laugh is killer, "ee.... actually, I called 3ashan widee akalmich ib shay... are u free right now?"

"Ee... 3an shino?"

"agoolich laman achoofich."

"um.... okay... il7een baroo7 Safeway bashterii cham shay."

"perfect, achoofich minak ba3ad 10 minutes."

"ok, cu." I replied and ended the conversation.

Hmm... Let me get dressed.


I put on my jean shorts, tank top, flip flops, my sunglasses, got my bag and keys and off I went.


My phone rang again, "Josh" appeared on the screen with a picture of him putting his tongue out.

Okay, I can't take this anymore! I clicked answer.

"Talah, phew! Finally! Talah please please can we talk." It was so good to hear his voice again, I really miss him.

"Hey Josh."

I think I heard him sigh on the other side.

"Talah, how r u?"

"I'm good." I tried to talk as little as possible because it's very possible that I might break down at any second and I don't need that right now.

"Talah, can we talk?"

I inhaled, exhaled, and counted to ten.

"Yes."

"When?"

"Today? But I'm on my way to meet Hasan at Safeway right now."

"Hasan? Oh okay... how about you come over for lunch?"

"Okay, sure."

"Yeah?" He's so cute.

"Sounds good, see you then."

"Bye Talah."

I miss him, I miss his breath next to my face, I miss the way he looks at me, I miss our talks, I miss our hangouts, I miss the way he used to hold my hand, I just miss him.



I arrived at Safeway right on time and saw that Hasan was there already but he was waiting at Tasty Treats, a delicious icecream place.

He smiled and waved which made me smile back, I guess I still have a TINY crush on him.

The lady greeted me as I came in, she knows me min kithir ma I eat there.

"How are you Talah? How's school? You come for ice-cream?" MaiLee the Korean lady asked me. She's so sweet! She always talks to me whenever I come in here for icecream and sometimes she'd give me free ice-cream.

"Hey MaiLee, how are you? Yeah, sure why not... I'm actually meeting up with my friend..." I pointed at Hassan who's now standing next to me, "he's actually from Kuwait too."

"Ahhh, I see." She winked and gave me a knowing look which made me laugh, "he goodlooking!"
She whispered to me but ofcourse he heard.

I looked at him and he ran his hand through his hair and lowered his face but was smiling.. you know what I mean? The thing that guys do... Ugh, that drives me crazy! Its so sexy.

I blushed and laughed, "MaiLee you're so naughty! Hehe, 7asan ma3alaik minha."

"Laish? galat shay '3ala6?" He challenged me.

"Hehehehehehe!"

"La2 3ad Talooh, matifa8na chithii!" He started tickling me.

"HAYY! bassss.... tadrii inee a'3ar!"

There was some serious flirting going on, it got my mind off of Josh for a few minutes... It actually felt really good.

"Hehe, yallah i5thay icecreamich 3ashan I have something to ask you."

"Okay."

I took my ice cream and was about it to pay when he made me go sit down and paid for me instead. I thanked him and sat down on of the tables.

"Okay." He said as he pulled in his chair, "I'm going to just ask," he exhaled, "are u still with Josh?"

Woah, that was unexpected, I was completely speechless. That came out of nowhere, we never talked about Josh.

"Talah, please jawbay."

"Um, madri...I think so."

"So you're broken up?"

"Errm... Yes."

"Do you still like him?"

"Ee."

"Okay, 7a9alt jawabi... ma kint abee agool shay gabil bas now that you're single bas kint bagoolich inee I'm interested in you."

Wow.

"Oo ba36eech wagtich bas I want to ask you if you want to go out. You don't have to answer now, I'll be waiting... i5thii ra7tich." He put his hand on my hand, "Talah, please fakree fee..." He said and got up.

"Okay." I replied.

"I'll be seeing you." He smiled his sexy smile, "Talah."

Saturday, May 30, 2009

90210 teacher ;) the one that Matt looks like

I got a picture of him and a video... but to really know what I mean that the 90210 teacher is hot, you have to watch 90210... i couldn't find really good clips but here's one.... he appears at 3:10



and here's a picture:



and btw sorry for the confusion..when I said I'm typing a new post, I did a new post for Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? not Love Drops.... Love Drops's new post is coming.. SOON ;) hehe

Friday, May 29, 2009

Thoughts & Questions

Okay awalan, i'm back on track! wallah sorry 3an il updates bas i had my exams.. but i'm ALL DONE now :D ... oo my internet wasn't working for the past TWO DAYS!! bas its working now :D thank God I had my blackberry....;) hehe .... i'm working on a new part right now..

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'3air hatha...for the past two days I've been walking up way too early.... madrii laish... lazim itchoofoon shakli ams... kint 6al3a starbucks bilail oo i was going to fall asleep on my friends...i was so sleepy.... fa laman radait il bait i went straight to sleep...


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Bas tara il7een il jaw 7ada 7iloooo for swimming..... 7ada yabeela chalet! ma ri7t :( bas I did tan and swim ib my cousin's swimming pool :D .... My face and body are now brownish-pink....

Any one else out there tanning?

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Random question: How old do you think I am? And what do you think I look like?

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I was watching a TV show... you know catching up with mosalsalat oo chithii now that I'm free? .... ee? oo the song "time after time" was on one of them.... oo it fit soooo perfectly... oo 9ar feenii sha5barii!!!

So I downloaded and am now playing it over and over again.

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Speaking of music....

Does anyone know the old Right Round song?
I, for one, don't like the new one.


I LOVE the old one... the new one is a pervy remake...


Awal ma 6ila3 il flo-rida one... i was like "oh!!! hatha remix?" oo people looked at me like hathee shfeeha?

oo i'm singing the lyrics to the old one: "you spin me right round, baby, right round, like a record baby, right round round!"

oo 6ila3 ina the lyrics are completely wrong....

i was so confused ina shisalfa?! im SURE those are the lyrics.... three weeks later or so, I figured out that flo rida made a new song.

heheh.... '3abiya wella shino?


anyways here's the video




which one do you like more??

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oo min the important dates in KUWAIT'S HISTORY from 2009 was the day COLDSTONE opened in Avenues...

I bet you ANYTHING that no one was more sad than I was that it was going to open...

and that no one was as excited as I was once I accepted the fact that it was opening!

Laman fatchoo I was shocked that they didn't have one of the KEY ingredients in any order: COOKIE DOUGH!

I was about to strangle the worker, miskeen...

My eyes opened wide and I asked him: "NO COOKIE DOUGH?!?!!"

He laughed and said that they still didn't import it and that the next time I'll be there, there will be cookie dough. I didn't want to push it and say that the next time would be tomorrow so I just shut up and ordered the icecream with brownie....




but....

dum dum da daaaaa
*scary music ;p *


I went the next day AND . . .


THERE WAS COOKIE DOUGH... hallelujah!!



But I'm in big trouble because I had coldstone seven times the week it opened.... I went daily to Avenues for the week and would walk from one side of Avenues to the other to get my coldstone after a movie or before shopping.

Yum.

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inshallah the new part will be ready by today... :)

I'm heading out now...

Thanks for reading :)

Comment people, please :)

Comments make me smile.... they make me want to WRITE! ;p

See you, love you all....

--Hi, My Name Is...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

part 14-b

"Matt? 90210 hottie-look-a-like, Matt?" I stared at her.

Her eyes were down but she brought them up to look at me. She was really ashamed, "Please don't judge!" She pleaded.

"No, I won't, I won't.. but how, why, when?!"

"Okay...we started seeing each other before uni.. I didn't even know he was going to be a professor at our college.... but we dated, had our fun, you know?"

"Yeah." I nodded-- Bas akeed ya3ni 'had our fun' sha'3la '3air ib amreeca 3an il kuwait.

"Well, when I found out that he's a professor and he found out that I'm a student in his class, we broke it off... that would be really unprofessional, you know? And although he is young, he's mature and very responsible... so we called it off but I still have feelings for him... like strong feelings... this only happened two times before and when I got these feelings, I fell in love with those two guys.... so I guess this is leading to love... But anyways... where'd I leave off?.... ah yeah, we broke it off but I still really liked him... but we just became friends after that.. like I'd joke with him in class and stuff but its harmless..."

"Oh, I'm sorry... it must be hard."

"It is... and I just can't be his friend any longer.. so I made the move, the party was the first time since we broke up that we actually got together...."

"Got together?"

"Made out... danced... you know..."

"Ahaa okay I see" I winked, "What about Jared?"

"Me and Jared weren't dating for more than four months... I just knew him that amount of time... but when Matt and I broke up.. I thought maybe Jared and I would have a connection and we weren't doing anything that isn't allowed... he's my age and a student and everything.... but I'm not happy with him..... the happiest I've been is with Matt"

"Yeah.... hmm.... does Jared know that?"

"I told him tonight... no details, just that we were better as friends and I guess the feelings were mutual."

"Hehe, that's good."

She laughed, "Yeah...."

"So this is so highschool, but how'd you rate Matt's kisses out of ten?" I asked which got another laugh from her.

"Talah, trust me, it's 11.5 out of 10..."

"Wow, that good, huh?"

"Yup! What about Josh? I never got the pleasure of kissing him?"

Now it was my turn to laugh, "hehehehe, well me neither."

Her eyes became huge, "Don't tell me you've never kissed???"

"No I did just not Josh.."

her expression went back to normal... hahah;p ...."Why not?"

"wait first lemme explain Kuwait's society to you for a bit."

Fahamtha shloon ihnii 3aib il dating oo chithii.... oo like some ppl date secretly oo the part about religion oooo blah blah blah....

"I still don't get it but about the religion I get that... and it's good to pull away now then go in deep."

"Yeah, that's what my friend back home, Haya said....Hehe, I know you don't... you just have to be like there or a Kuwaiti to get it.... but in a way i think you got the concept.... hey, what time is it?"

"Shoot, 6 am..."

"Hahah, we've been talking for three hours..."

"Your explanation itself needed almost an hour!"

I stuck my tongue out, "Thank God, we don't have uni today."

Friday, May 22, 2009

Important Message

Inspirational Song
Seriously, read the lyrics, it's really impressive and so true and tragic...
Amazing song, even though it isn't a new one, this is real music, Love it... thought I should share it:

Hands Held High by Linkin Park

"Turn my mike up louder I got to say something
Light weights step to the side when we come in

Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running

Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping

Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and

Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping

Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for

Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for

Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor

Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank

These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the cheque
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect

For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"

[Chorus:]
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen

In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen

World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions

Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drugged under a jeep

Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust from bullet proof vests away

It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes

My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show

My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine

On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die

Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?
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