Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I'm Back
I never forgot you guys, I swear, I think of you daily!
My internet didn't work for FIVE days; I swear I was going to kill myself! Thank God I had my blackberry!
Other than that, I traveled! :D I'm in Las Vegas right now; woohoo!
And I'm working on the post since I finally have internet + time!
Other than that, I posted two normal posts... trust me, read them! ;) lots of advice for all of you. :)
Love you all so much ;**
You see how much happier I am? (You'll understand when you read Ls of the World ;) )
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My Mission!
I was on a MISSION. I mission to get taller.
That was actually my phrase I'd use when telling people: "insert name, I'M ON A MISSION, insert name, TO GET TALLER!!!"
My trainer said that girls have until the age 22 or something to keep getting taller.
So since I LOVE drinking milk by itself. *side note: I can't believe people don't like drinking milk! It shocks me! HOW can u not drink cold milk by itself?* Oh well... Anyways, since I loooove drinking milk as it is by itself, I decided I would drink it more times in a day since my trainer answered my question of how much I can drink milk by saying as long as it's FAT FREE, as much as I want.
PERFECT!!!! I never realized that I can intake something I love as much as I want. For more than a month I upped my fat free milk intake with 5 or more filled glasses per day... mmm.. yummy!
And guess what?!
Today morning when I woke up, prayed, brushed my teeth and came to the living room where my family was, and my older sister was standing next to me.
First of all, she's older than me. Second of all, we're the same height exactly but she may have been taller by an inch or less.
But today she was like: "Mama! Hi, My Name Is... 6alat! A6wal minee!" Whaaat? I thought. So we stood next to each other, and guess what? It's TRUE!!!! woohooooo, in your face, everyone who doubted me when I told them about my mission!
Anyways, I'll update you guys on if it's true and any improvements. ;)
BTW, I'm 18. ;)
Drink up, girls! (And guys, if there are any reading this. ;p)
Sunday, June 14, 2009
The Ls of the World
It as a SLAP to the face.
BUT,
I talked to a loyal friend and she gave me great advice that was all true....let's call her, L. And now this post is all about love and respect.
Now, I want to dedicate this post to all people out there who are like her.... those who are THERE for you, those who care.
This person, L, although we aren't as close as we used to be, she's ALWAYS there for me no matter what.
I asked her what to do when a person treats you like trash when to you she's your best friend. Do you guys have that type of best friend?
Anyways, she was like she would talk to them and I said that she wasn't the kind to talk. She asked if it was M (That girl who I thought was my best friend;p) and so I said yes. I tell you, I'd trust L with my life!
She told me the truth to my face, that M was moving away and that it was a slap to the face and that I should wake up to the reality.
She was absolutely right!
BTW, she wasn't telling me this in a mean way, she was telling me this in the right way (Plus this is just the overall general thing); and it's not like she's talking about something she doesn't know, the three of us, L, M, and I were close in the past for a while but we aren't as close but we you know how it is, we all go to the same school and she knows me so freaking well I don't know how she does. I've been through so much with her (good & bad & hard times).
Anyways, I always thought I was this happy, positive, optimistic person. But she made me realize I wasn't... I wasn't happy in a while. I was being treated like sh--.
It wasn't always like this, I'm pretty sure there was a time about four years ago when things were really good, where we actually cared about each other.
But not anymore. And L made me realize that. I cried so much today.
She woke me up to reality. The reality being that this is the end of a lie I let myself live with for a while now.
And I realized I really wasn't happy or positive, if I were, I would've concentrated on the good things in life.
And at that moment, I got an epiphany.
I have so many good people in my life that do care about me. I should stop concentrating on people who have been close to me for a long time and put them as a priority when to them I'm only a choice. I did have other people who I can tell actually cared about me.
I feel refreshed, and happy at this moment moment, after talking to her. I am ready for a new beginning.
And I am ready to be genuinely happy again.
This post goes out to all the people like L.
I love her so freaking much and look up to her and respect, you have no idea how much.
You have no idea what emotions and feelings and realizations went through me today. This is just a general idea.
I just wanted to tell you all this quote I love and how to true it is:
"Don't make someone your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing."
Amen to that! ;)
I feel thankful I built a strong bond with other people because I did make M my everything for a while, I let her in so much, she was like family to me and my family.
This post goes to L, and all the amazing and wonderful people like her who are honest, strong, caring, openhearted friends that just keep u on track.
This post is for her, she's just truly amazing, and I want the world to know her.
A note for you readers: be happy; focus on the good parts of life, SERIOUSLY; DON'T make anyone your priority when ur just an option; and don't make a person your everything, because when they're gone, you'll have nothing.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Honesty
I've been super busy these days and this is actually the first time since the last post I get a few breathing minutes to sit on the computer so I can tell you guys, it's still not ready....
MAYBE tomorrow..
XOXOX...
Sorry times infinity.
love you all,
Hi, My Name Is...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Teaser for the next part :P
Action, action, and more action.
Just a teaser for what's happening next.
1) Haya's in town!
2) Party at Alex's house (guy from swimming pool get-together) "little Talah"
3) Hmm... who is going to be at that party? Talah, Josh, and Hasan in one room? Chloe & Matt? What goes on?
You'll find out.... SOON. ;)
love you all,
Hi, My Name Is...
Btw, the Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? Finale is up... read & comment (A) hehe. :D
I HEART YOU ALL ;**
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Part 16b
Its short but its a continuation of part 16a... expect another post today or tomorrow ;***
SO sorry about the typo.... it's Talah not Chloe, haha ;) ;* .... my internet didn't work so i couldn't fix... fixing it now ;*
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At first he wouldn’t respond. I ran my hands through his hair, kissed him harder and then he started kissing me back. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer.
I thought of Chloe at that moment and her kisses with Matt… she said he’s 11.5 out of 10…. I’m pretty sure this kiss would score a 12.5.
Josh left one hand on my waist while his other hand came up to my hair where he pulled my head closer. I felt his lips smile against mine.
I can’t help but to smile too.
Our lips parted since we needed to breath but his face stayed really close to mine, “What was that Talah?” He whispered in his sexy voice.
That snapped me back to reality, to why I kissed him in the first place.
I looked into those beautiful eyes, “That was curiosity; your curiosity” I paused, “and mine.”
“Mmm..” He said as he pressed his lips against me again
, this time he was kissing me, this time, softer.
“Why do I have a feeling you’re kissing me when you’re trying to say something else. Is this goodbye?” He asked when we paused.
I looked back into his eyes, exhaled, and said as a tear fell from my eye, “Yes Josh, this is goodbye.”
He ran his finger across my cheekbone then removed the tear. He came in one last time for a long and sad kiss.
The tears were rushing out of my eyes by then as we kissed for that last time, "I'm sorry Josh." I whispered into his ear as we hugged.
"I love you, Talah." He replied.
"We're still going to be friends aren't we?"
He laughed, "Definitely, idiot!"
"But I'll still have feelings for you."
"I know, and I'll still love you." He replied as he wiped tears away from my face.
"Okay, I've got to go now."
"Okay, I'll see you around, Talah." He replied as he smiled but the sadness showed in his eyes.
"I'll see you around, Josh... Goodbye." I said when I reached the door.
I heard him say "Bye" as I closed the door behind me.
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Photos, this time from http://ilovewildfox.blogspot.com/
Friday, June 5, 2009
Funny Moment
I actually was home early yesterday but it was such a long day that I crashed at 10 something despite it being summer holiday.
Anyways, just wanted to tell u something funny that happened today.
Lemme give you a bit of background first. I'm having this party thing with my friends and family soon and so I went to get a cake with my dad-btw I got this really cute cake... it's SO funny, but that's not the point oo if I say what it looks like 7ada bikoon fa'6ee7a so anyways- I sent an invite via mobile to one of my friends that I haven't msged in a long time.
While we were choosing the cake and everything my phone rings oo 666***** appears... I'm thinking, huh, I don't know who this person is... So I answer and it turns out to be a guy and I'm like, "Mino?"
"He's like intay mino?"
Oo u know ilee I'm thinking wai3, kilish mo wagtik, bugg off... so I replied, "ra8am '3ala6" oo 9akatai 3ala wayha...
Anyways after that I get a msg in arabic and was about to delete it thinking its a stupid da3aya or something but then I pay attention to the number and it's that guy's number...
oo the msg says: asif wi9ali resala min hal ra8am 3ala 5a6i il thanee... oo then his name
I automatically delete it (by mistake) since I normally delete msgs after reading them.
Bas ba3dain istaw3abt that I think I sent him an invite to a party with my FAMILY and FRIENDS and it had the 3inwan and everything we were going to do. LOOL!!
I don't have the msg any longer and silly me, I forgot the name... ugh!! I'm an idiot to have deleted it....
I'm really curious as to who it is!
I told my friend this story oo istaw3abt ina ashwa this guy seemed to be mu7taram since he left his name there too... So I think he knows it's a mistake, phewww.
But at the same time 7asa he's going to drive by that night and see what's going on... that would be funny.
This all happened like 20 minutes ago or so.
But the funny part about all of this is that everytime I see a young guy after that msg, (I've become so paranoid) I think: IT'S HIM.
LOL
Btw, I promise, there will be a post, SOON. ;** love you all
hope u laugh at my expense ;*
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Part 16a
Check it out:
and I just got back from a party... thought I should continue it and post it... enjoy ;**
love you all ;**
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As soon as I reached his house I noticed that he was waiting on the chairs outside for me. He got up quickly to greet me but he didn't get the chance to come to me since I rushed to him and wrapped my arms around his shoulder.
"I miss you." I whispered into his chest.
He hesitated at first but then I felt his arms wrap around me.
"Come inside, let's eat lunch."
We sat at the table and ate quietly. He kept looking at me and I kept looking at him, it felt so awkward.
"What's this all about Talah? You break up with me because I tried to kiss you and now you miss me?"
"What?" I stared at him gape faced.
"You're sending so many mixed signals and it's really unfair because I really like you!"
"I'm sorry." I replied, "It's just complicated."
"Well, then, uncomplicate it!" I could see the vains pop out and his muscles appear in his arms as he clenched his fists, "Do you know how frustrating this is for me?!"
"I--I Jo--sh" I stammered, "Oo--kay... I'm going to uncomplicate the whole thing...." I looked at his beautiful blue eyes that were now filled with confusion, "1) you are not a Kuwaiti ... and 2) you are not a muslim"
I could see that he grasped the concept as his eyes softened and he unclenched his fists, "Oh... Talah, it isn't a big deal."
"No, Josh, it is... in Kuwait it is! There isn't a future to this relationship!"
"How can u say that?!" He replied angrily.
"Josh, trust me, I really want to be with you... but there's no hope... I can let go the fact that you aren't Kuwaiti but I can't let go of the fact that you aren't a muslim." I tried to say it calmly but my voice was shivering, "So it's better to get out now then go deep."
"Is that why u met with Hassan?!"
That came out of nowhere, "Wait, are jealous?!"
We were both standing up right now, furious and fumed.
He came closer, "I'm jealous as hell, talah!!!!"
I looked at him, speechless, "Why?"
"WHY?! WHY TALAH?! ARE U SERIOUS?! Talah I'm falling for you... I try to kiss you and u seemed to want it to until u backed up and I let that slide... I didn't need that kiss... It was enough JUST BEING WITH YOU... I WAS SATISFIED... But then you break up with me!!! You break up with me.... and a week later you go out with HASSAN?! I'm JEALOUS TALAH, I'M JEALOUS!!"
I stayed silent. This is the first time I see him this mad and his face so red, he was always calmed down and laid back... he looked incredibly sexy like this.
I took a tiny step forward... and another one... and another one....
He was so furious that he didn't notice until I reached him.
"Josh?" I asked, looking up at him.
"Yes?" He replied angrily.
"I'm sorry." I said as I wrapped my arms around his neck and crept closer to his face.
He looked confused as hell... my lips were next to his lips and then I moved them to his cheek.
"I'm sorry Josh... I really want to be with you... but I can't" I whispered into his ear.
I was sad yet scared at the same time because of how tense he was, I can feel it... I think he can hurt me if he wanted to, although he never would.
I moved my lips back in front of his and went even closer and brushed my lips against his.
This seemed to calm him down a bit.
I did it again, but this time I kissed him.
Monday, June 1, 2009
part 15b
"Talah, you not want icecream?" MaiLee asked me, noticing that I wasn't eating. I snapped out of my zone.
"Um, yeah.. I think I'll just take it to go." I gave her a weak smile.
"Okay, Sure sure." She gave a bag and cover for it, "See you."
"Bye bye, see you soon."
As I left, I noticed that I forgot to go to Safeway. I got a trolley and walked inside just wondering what the hell I'm going to do.
I didn't pay attention to what I was getting or the choices I had of those things... the only choices that ran in my head were: Josh or get together with Hassan.
Hassan came from a respectable high-class family, one my family would definitly approve of.
But Josh, Josh, I think I'm in love with Josh. It may be too early for love but I'm definitly on the way.
Ugh.
I left the trolley in Safeway and went to my car. Focus on the road Talah. So I did and it was able to take my thoughts off guys.
I got home at about 12 and decided to go straight to Josh... I Miss him so freaking much.
So I checked myself in the mirror, I looked okay but I didn't bother to change... I wanted to get there ASAP.
So I got back in my car, sent Josh a msg that I'm on my way and off I went.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
part 15
On Wednesday my phone rang with a local area number: *256****5 but it wasn't a number I knew and I'm sure it wasn't a 1-800 call.
"Aloo?" I answered, wondering who it is.
"Hallah Talah, shloonich?" A manly voice replied, "Ana 7asan."
Ah, Hassan Al-*****! He's one of the few other Kuwaitis studying in San Mateo College. I hang out with him at uni and let me tell you, he's a sight for sore eyes; especially sore eyes that hasn't seen 5aleeji guys in so long. I used to have a mini-crush on him (and Josh) when we first started college but he's just a friend and we never exchanged numbers or met outside of class but he's calling me for some reason.
"Oh, hii... ana zaina il 7amdilla, shloonik inta? 5ala9t il public speaking speech?"
"Hehe" He chuckled, oh man his laugh is killer, "ee.... actually, I called 3ashan widee akalmich ib shay... are u free right now?"
"Ee... 3an shino?"
"agoolich laman achoofich."
"um.... okay... il7een baroo7 Safeway bashterii cham shay."
"perfect, achoofich minak ba3ad 10 minutes."
"ok, cu." I replied and ended the conversation.
Hmm... Let me get dressed.
I put on my jean shorts, tank top, flip flops, my sunglasses, got my bag and keys and off I went.
My phone rang again, "Josh" appeared on the screen with a picture of him putting his tongue out.
Okay, I can't take this anymore! I clicked answer.
"Talah, phew! Finally! Talah please please can we talk." It was so good to hear his voice again, I really miss him.
"Hey Josh."
I think I heard him sigh on the other side.
"Talah, how r u?"
"I'm good." I tried to talk as little as possible because it's very possible that I might break down at any second and I don't need that right now.
"Talah, can we talk?"
I inhaled, exhaled, and counted to ten.
"Yes."
"When?"
"Today? But I'm on my way to meet Hasan at Safeway right now."
"Hasan? Oh okay... how about you come over for lunch?"
"Okay, sure."
"Yeah?" He's so cute.
"Sounds good, see you then."
"Bye Talah."
I miss him, I miss his breath next to my face, I miss the way he looks at me, I miss our talks, I miss our hangouts, I miss the way he used to hold my hand, I just miss him.
I arrived at Safeway right on time and saw that Hasan was there already but he was waiting at Tasty Treats, a delicious icecream place.
He smiled and waved which made me smile back, I guess I still have a TINY crush on him.
The lady greeted me as I came in, she knows me min kithir ma I eat there.
"How are you Talah? How's school? You come for ice-cream?" MaiLee the Korean lady asked me. She's so sweet! She always talks to me whenever I come in here for icecream and sometimes she'd give me free ice-cream.
"Hey MaiLee, how are you? Yeah, sure why not... I'm actually meeting up with my friend..." I pointed at Hassan who's now standing next to me, "he's actually from Kuwait too."
"Ahhh, I see." She winked and gave me a knowing look which made me laugh, "he goodlooking!"
She whispered to me but ofcourse he heard.
I looked at him and he ran his hand through his hair and lowered his face but was smiling.. you know what I mean? The thing that guys do... Ugh, that drives me crazy! Its so sexy.
I blushed and laughed, "MaiLee you're so naughty! Hehe, 7asan ma3alaik minha."
"Laish? galat shay '3ala6?" He challenged me.
"Hehehehehehe!"
"La2 3ad Talooh, matifa8na chithii!" He started tickling me.
"HAYY! bassss.... tadrii inee a'3ar!"
There was some serious flirting going on, it got my mind off of Josh for a few minutes... It actually felt really good.
"Hehe, yallah i5thay icecreamich 3ashan I have something to ask you."
"Okay."
I took my ice cream and was about it to pay when he made me go sit down and paid for me instead. I thanked him and sat down on of the tables.
"Okay." He said as he pulled in his chair, "I'm going to just ask," he exhaled, "are u still with Josh?"
Woah, that was unexpected, I was completely speechless. That came out of nowhere, we never talked about Josh.
"Talah, please jawbay."
"Um, madri...I think so."
"So you're broken up?"
"Errm... Yes."
"Do you still like him?"
"Ee."
"Okay, 7a9alt jawabi... ma kint abee agool shay gabil bas now that you're single bas kint bagoolich inee I'm interested in you."
Wow.
"Oo ba36eech wagtich bas I want to ask you if you want to go out. You don't have to answer now, I'll be waiting... i5thii ra7tich." He put his hand on my hand, "Talah, please fakree fee..." He said and got up.
"Okay." I replied.
"I'll be seeing you." He smiled his sexy smile, "Talah."
Saturday, May 30, 2009
90210 teacher ;) the one that Matt looks like
and here's a picture:
and btw sorry for the confusion..when I said I'm typing a new post, I did a new post for Let's Keep This Just Between Us, Okay? not Love Drops.... Love Drops's new post is coming.. SOON ;) hehe
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thoughts & Questions
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'3air hatha...for the past two days I've been walking up way too early.... madrii laish... lazim itchoofoon shakli ams... kint 6al3a starbucks bilail oo i was going to fall asleep on my friends...i was so sleepy.... fa laman radait il bait i went straight to sleep...
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Bas tara il7een il jaw 7ada 7iloooo for swimming..... 7ada yabeela chalet! ma ri7t :( bas I did tan and swim ib my cousin's swimming pool :D .... My face and body are now brownish-pink....
Any one else out there tanning?
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Random question: How old do you think I am? And what do you think I look like?
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I was watching a TV show... you know catching up with mosalsalat oo chithii now that I'm free? .... ee? oo the song "time after time" was on one of them.... oo it fit soooo perfectly... oo 9ar feenii sha5barii!!!
So I downloaded and am now playing it over and over again.
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Speaking of music....
Does anyone know the old Right Round song?
I, for one, don't like the new one.
I LOVE the old one... the new one is a pervy remake...
Awal ma 6ila3 il flo-rida one... i was like "oh!!! hatha remix?" oo people looked at me like hathee shfeeha?
oo i'm singing the lyrics to the old one: "you spin me right round, baby, right round, like a record baby, right round round!"
oo 6ila3 ina the lyrics are completely wrong....
i was so confused ina shisalfa?! im SURE those are the lyrics.... three weeks later or so, I figured out that flo rida made a new song.
heheh.... '3abiya wella shino?
anyways here's the video
which one do you like more??
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oo min the important dates in KUWAIT'S HISTORY from 2009 was the day COLDSTONE opened in Avenues...
I bet you ANYTHING that no one was more sad than I was that it was going to open...
and that no one was as excited as I was once I accepted the fact that it was opening!
Laman fatchoo I was shocked that they didn't have one of the KEY ingredients in any order: COOKIE DOUGH!
I was about to strangle the worker, miskeen...
My eyes opened wide and I asked him: "NO COOKIE DOUGH?!?!!"
He laughed and said that they still didn't import it and that the next time I'll be there, there will be cookie dough. I didn't want to push it and say that the next time would be tomorrow so I just shut up and ordered the icecream with brownie....
but....
dum dum da daaaaa
*scary music ;p *
I went the next day AND . . .
THERE WAS COOKIE DOUGH... hallelujah!!
But I'm in big trouble because I had coldstone seven times the week it opened.... I went daily to Avenues for the week and would walk from one side of Avenues to the other to get my coldstone after a movie or before shopping.
Yum.
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inshallah the new part will be ready by today... :)
I'm heading out now...
Thanks for reading :)
Comment people, please :)
Comments make me smile.... they make me want to WRITE! ;p
See you, love you all....
--Hi, My Name Is...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
part 14-b
Her eyes were down but she brought them up to look at me. She was really ashamed, "Please don't judge!" She pleaded.
"No, I won't, I won't.. but how, why, when?!"
"Okay...we started seeing each other before uni.. I didn't even know he was going to be a professor at our college.... but we dated, had our fun, you know?"
"Yeah." I nodded-- Bas akeed ya3ni 'had our fun' sha'3la '3air ib amreeca 3an il kuwait.
"Well, when I found out that he's a professor and he found out that I'm a student in his class, we broke it off... that would be really unprofessional, you know? And although he is young, he's mature and very responsible... so we called it off but I still have feelings for him... like strong feelings... this only happened two times before and when I got these feelings, I fell in love with those two guys.... so I guess this is leading to love... But anyways... where'd I leave off?.... ah yeah, we broke it off but I still really liked him... but we just became friends after that.. like I'd joke with him in class and stuff but its harmless..."
"Oh, I'm sorry... it must be hard."
"It is... and I just can't be his friend any longer.. so I made the move, the party was the first time since we broke up that we actually got together...."
"Got together?"
"Made out... danced... you know..."
"Ahaa okay I see" I winked, "What about Jared?"
"Me and Jared weren't dating for more than four months... I just knew him that amount of time... but when Matt and I broke up.. I thought maybe Jared and I would have a connection and we weren't doing anything that isn't allowed... he's my age and a student and everything.... but I'm not happy with him..... the happiest I've been is with Matt"
"Yeah.... hmm.... does Jared know that?"
"I told him tonight... no details, just that we were better as friends and I guess the feelings were mutual."
"Hehe, that's good."
She laughed, "Yeah...."
"So this is so highschool, but how'd you rate Matt's kisses out of ten?" I asked which got another laugh from her.
"Talah, trust me, it's 11.5 out of 10..."
"Wow, that good, huh?"
"Yup! What about Josh? I never got the pleasure of kissing him?"
Now it was my turn to laugh, "hehehehe, well me neither."
Her eyes became huge, "Don't tell me you've never kissed???"
"No I did just not Josh.."
her expression went back to normal... hahah;p ...."Why not?"
"wait first lemme explain Kuwait's society to you for a bit."
Fahamtha shloon ihnii 3aib il dating oo chithii.... oo like some ppl date secretly oo the part about religion oooo blah blah blah....
"I still don't get it but about the religion I get that... and it's good to pull away now then go in deep."
"Yeah, that's what my friend back home, Haya said....Hehe, I know you don't... you just have to be like there or a Kuwaiti to get it.... but in a way i think you got the concept.... hey, what time is it?"
"Shoot, 6 am..."
"Hahah, we've been talking for three hours..."
"Your explanation itself needed almost an hour!"
I stuck my tongue out, "Thank God, we don't have uni today."